Not Good Enough

• by Anthony Villa
• 4 years ago

For a dad, it's really hard when you’re unable to heal her most precious heart. I read a poem so it can give me ideas on what else I need to say, but what can a dad do if his daughter is still losing faith? Every night I pray that God brings some good her way because not even I can take her tears away. It’s hard for a dad because dads are supposed to make everything better, especially when she tells you when it will end. All I can say is that I love you and that I know you are the best thing that ever happened to me in my life. You’re worth fighting for because without you I also wouldn’t have any wings.

• by Julieannabethea
• 5 years ago

I hate my life. It feels like no one scares about me, and it feels like no one loves me. It’s so hard to get rid of this pain. In the mirror I see a bad side of me looking back. I stand alone. I walk alone.

• by Wordmaster23
• 9 years ago

I can TOTALLY relate to this poem it's so true. No one except me knows the pain I endure every day.

• by Just Nicole, Australia
• 10 years ago

Whenever I hear that "you're not alone" rubbish, it makes me smile. It isn't a happy smile. I am alone. We are ALL alone. My father saw my cuts once when I was visiting him. When I got home there was a phone call and dear old dad wanted to talk to me. He just kept repeating how stupid and useless people cut themselves, so I lied because I wanted to be a daughter he could be proud of, not disdainful of. I live with my grandmother, and she's the same. When I leave school next year (if I last that long), I better be successful or my entire family will disown me. And it's that pressure that really kills, you know? Especially because my father is the reason I cut myself. Well, one of them anyway. He murdered my mother when I was a baby, and he's in prison now. That's where he saw the cuts: when I was sitting across from him at a white prison table. I say that I've forgiven him, but... how do you even really do that? CAN you do that? I don't think I can. I'm not strong enough. My friends are why I'm staying here, not my family, and even they aren't enough. I haven't tried to kill myself so far, but I think about it ALL THE TIME, I dream about it. It's bringing my grades down. I cut so much I feel like I'm going to develop anemia from frequent blood loss. There are little permanent scars on my thighs and hips, and huge ones on my wrist and forearm. I used to smoke, but I quit, so now I drink more than a forty year old divorcee, and I haven't even seen my friends outside of school in over five months.

• by Kimberly
• 10 years ago

I understand what you are feeling except it's not just my mom who acts this way to me it's also my grandparents, aunts, uncles, and so on. I go to school just to get away from it all. Sometimes I wonder why I even exist. My life is hell and no one cares. They always say you can tell me how you feel but then when you do they yell at you for feeling that way when they are the ones who make you feel that way. It makes me feel like no one cares about me. I just want someone who will listen. :-(

• by Hannah
• 12 years ago

I totally know what you're going through. My mom's the exact way, she claims she loves me yet every day I get told how worthless, lazy, and self centered I am. I try so hard to be just how she wants me to be but it's still never enough.

• by Houston
• 13 years ago

I'm glad to hear that other people know how I feel. This poem means the world to me because me and tons of others can relate to it.
The only thing is that I am skinny...
:)(:

• by New Orleans
• 13 years ago

Wow, this says EXACTLY how I am feeling. I feel like nothing I do is ever right. I am so happy there are other people out there and I am not the only one. I always think about running away or killing myself but now I take counseling and it helps a lot. but I am still trying. The only difference in this poem is I am skinny.

• by Taylor, TN
• 13 years ago

I know the feeling of your pain. I have the exact thoughts everyday that I live this terrible life. I have to fight all the time against my thoughts. It's terrible. I'm sorry you have to go through this the way you do. but never feel alone. You have people all over the world who feel the exact same way, and are here to talk to and help you.

• by Alexzandria, NC
• 13 years ago

I completely understand what you're going through. My own mother takes out her anger/depression on her love ones but she doesn't realize it. My mother doesn't realize that she is hurting me but I still love her dearly. I just completely understand EVERYTHING you wrote in you're poem. It's good to know someone out there knows how I feel. But that doesn't mean I want ANYONE to feel this way. Hang in there k? (P.S. I'm 13)

• by Tamera, NC
• 13 years ago

This is so sad. Keep your head high and know that everyone is beautiful no matter what shape or size you are. In your time of trouble look towards God who is always there for you. I am a big girl and I try to lose weight but it doesn't happen as fast as I would like but I'm okay with that because I know that I am somebody and my spot on this earth is not vacant. Just tell yourself I am somebody and I will succeed no matter who tries to put me down if I fall it's not because I can't get back up but it's because I allow myself to. From now on rise amongst your problems and pray everytime you feel alone.

• by Wendy
• 13 years ago

You know sometimes I feel alone because I feel like I have nobody. And sometimes I wish everything can get better for me. This is why I read poetry because it makes me feel a lot better. I love the poems here they are wonderful.

• by Brittney, United States
• 13 years ago

Your never alone, You might feel this way, but There will always be someone ready to talk. There for you when no one else is around. I hope everything works out for you, Because Hun you have your whole life ahead of you. Don't give up. Stand tall, And Keep going forward into life. I wish you luck with everything. My heart goes out for you.

@Lauren: Most Mothers that can't show love is because they never felt love and don't know how to give it. You Are loved, by someone, I have faith in you. And EVERY other girl out there because life's not easy. It's not supposed to be, Good luck!

• by Lauren
• 13 years ago

Its a sad comfort when you hear that you are not alone.
I have always felt that my skeletons consume me, when I was about 13 I asked my so-called Mom "what is the point of life and living?" Her response should of been realizing this is not normal 13 year old question, but instead was "You act just like your grandpa, he always asked stupid things like that." My grandpa left our family when I was about 13 cause he was depressed. Is it possible to have a parent to love you? Because sometimes it feels impossible. There is a life separate from the one of school and home. I prefer the school one.

• by Jessica
• 13 years ago

When I read this, I started to cry. Not only because it's sad, but because I can relate to and know how you feel. My parents have told me that I'm not good enough, I'm a disappointment, they don't love me. I'm also known as a happy person. I guess I'm a good actor. I'm Very depressed and have many physiological disorders. But, everytime I go for help, I'm shut out. I wish to be accepted for who I am and for people to love me. I'm alone.

• by Desirae, Lost
• 14 years ago

I can agree with this. My parents love me, but can't understand. I am always happy and alive, but on the inside I'm crumbling. Yesterday I broke out crying while I was playing with my dog because she won't live forever. Delilah (dog) understands me, and is my true friend. My friends think I'm happy, bubbly, and love life. Truth: I am depressed, ignored, and hate life. I want to die, but that would hurt people. So I go on in suffering, but the worst part: I'm alone in my misery.

• by Shannon Carter, Vermont
• 14 years ago

This poem brought tears to my eyes, because this is how I feel. I am only fifteen years old and I feel like I am alone and not understood. I am happy to know I am not the only one out there.

• by Camille
• 14 years ago

MY heart breaks for you and I hope you are alright. I grew up in a similar situation and there were so many days that I didn't think I would make it. I am grown now and it still hurts but I have other people in my life now that truely care about me. My life that I have now was worth hanging in there for.

• by Erin
• 14 years ago

I know just how you feel! but everyday is a new day and things will get worse before they get better but remember that they will always get better! I am glad to know that I am not the only one out there who feels this way!

• by Jakki Musgrave, Phoenix AZ
• 14 years ago

Oh, honey I am so sorry you feel like this....it's not right. I want you to know that right now it seems impossible through the day to day but life will get better...it's all about getting through the abuse as best as you can, and getting away to live the life you deserve. No one deserves to feel like this. You matter. A lot. I'm so sorry.

• by Haleigh, Edmonton
• 14 years ago

I'm sorry to hear that's how you feel, but it kind of feels good that I'm not the only one that feels this way, ya know? I mean no matter what I do they love my sister more then me, my best isn't good enough, they just cant seem to love me! I hope things get better. One thing you should think of when you think death is the only way is, if you die you won't be able to prove how wrong they were about you! live to prove them wrong!!

• by Addrienne
• 14 years ago

I know exactly how you feel. I also have a mom who doesn't love me for who I am just because we're different in such a way. And what really upsets me is that sometimes she says she wants to slap me until she could see blood from my very cheeks and write with my blood on the wall saying, "You should be more like me?" But I still ask this question: Does she really love for who I am? This one I call "Mom"?

• by Kat White
• 15 years ago

This is so so sad I cry for the person in this poem. my heart breaks and aches for them. why don't some parents show the love for the child instead of making them feel this way. the mum does love the child but hasn't been shown how to be a good mum.
I pray that the person who this is about knows how special they really are.