Nevermore

• by Peris Peter
• 8 months ago

11th April 2024 my darkest time. The day I lost my husband. It's painful I try to be strong for the kids and for myself but all I feel is pain. Am lost and confused loneliness is now what I feel. I did not even get to see him for one last time. He is in Dubai I am in Kenya. He went to work but he won't be coming back to me. There won't be any phone calls, any messages I will not get them anymore. I am not okay.

• by Nain Beil
• 6 years ago

I lost my husband 23 years ago after 20 years of marriage and 2 sons. The night after he passed I was outside crying. I looked up to see a full moon. I vowed that I would remember him every time I saw a full moon, forever after. And I do. The world has kept on turning, his sons have grown into men, and I have remarried since then. Oh, how I wish he could see his sons as adults. If only he could see them through my eyes. They look so much like him. He would have adored them so. A part of me died the night he did. I look at the full moon and try to reconnect with his soul...

• by Teresa Ramirez
• 7 years ago

My husband passed away last June from bone and liver cancer. It truly took me too because I didn't want to say goodbye at his funeral. I still cry for him each night. He's still the love of my life.

• by Anne Regis
• 8 years ago

My husband of 4 months is dying of secondary brain cancer, I'm torn in two ,,after searching for each other for many years we met. He was younger than me by 13 years. I was divorced after a long loveless marriage, he had never been married, we were soul mates made for each other. We have only been together 14 months. We new he had lung cancer but after treatment was in remission, then wham a seizure and the terrible news. He had only weeks to live, we married from home. The week after the news, I'm lost, scared, and frightened. He was part of me, my friend, my partner, my lover. I can't wait to meet him in the next world. I just can't let him go....my life is overtime dead inside.

• by Ruth
• 10 years ago

My husband passed away last month August 2014 because of chronic heart and kidney disease. Its very hurt. I'm devastated. We have three small children. We have 9 yrs. old daughter, 4 yrs. old son and 18 months old son. I don't know what to do. I'm trying so hard to be strong for my children but there are moment that I'm weak and sad. When my kids are at school, I cried loud, really loud, wishing he can hear me. Hoping I will feel his spirit. I miss him so much. His my best friend, my mentor, my backbone and my loving sweetheart. This coming October 21st were supposed to celebrate our 7th yr. anniversary. :-(

• by Kemmy, Calgary
• 10 years ago

My husband of just over 10 years passed away September 14,2012 early hours without saying good-bye. No hint at all , We slept, talked till we both slept and he never came back to me, painful, so painful but it happened. he Left me with three kids, the youngest then a three year old,
Life, Adewumi no day passes without a thought of you. I am so sure of what you will be doing in heaven for us. Life through it alone is just unbearable, cumbersome, complex. I will try to live those dreams.
I really love you, hope you see but what can I do.,
Adewumi Micheal I MISS YOU SO SO MUCH

• by Lori Rigg, Bellmont
• 10 years ago

My husband died of cancer January 30,2014. The worst day of my life. He was my high school sweetheart who we fell in love with each other. After 2 1\2 yrs. we separated with no reason. We both got married to other people and had families. Little did I know he was divorced. I got divorced after my marriage failed and looked him up. Sent him a message and he called me. We talked like we'd never been apart. We met for a weekend to see how things would go. He moved here to be with me. We got married in October! Beautiful day. We were so happy. Then 3 years later he got cancer and died 2 weeks later! My heart is still broken! He was the love of my life.

• by Rosanne
• 10 years ago

My husband passed away 5 years ago today. Think of him daily and MISS HIM SO MUCH. As the saying goes. YOU don't know what you have till its GONE. I do know in some way he guides me and lets me make it through another day. Just praying and hoping we will get to connect when the time comes and we can take up where we left off. Love and miss you Jess. The hurt in my heart and mind will never leave me. I wish you could also come back and help me straighten up all your MANY dealings you left unfinished....Lol...lol.....You know what I am talking about. Love and Miss You Always. There will always be an emptiness that can not be filled.

• by Dee, Yorkshire
• 10 years ago

I lost my beloved husband 18 months ago. The pain is still unbearable. He always said, we were 1 soul inhabiting 2 bodies-- so true. When does it stop hurting?

• by Carol Holste, Iowa
• 10 years ago

My loving husband passed away on May 23, 2012 of cancer. After doing radiation and chemo for 4 months they said he had at least four to five more years to live. One Friday in May he told me to take him to the hospital. He passed away on the following Tuesday. We would of been married for 18 years. He was my rock and someone to lean on. He took care of everything. After he passed away I didn't know anything he did with finances, insurance and the house. I am still lost after 2 years. I need him so much. I made a pillow case with his picture on it and talk to him every night when I hold the pillow and I can still kiss him good might. It is not the same but it helps. God is taking care of him now and he is not suffering anymore.to my true Love Carl, I love you so much.
To my true Love Carl

• by Goldsboro NC
• 10 years ago

My darling husband passed away Feb 4th of 2013. He was at work and his eighteen wheeler turned over with him and killed him instantly. We had been together for 15 years and married for almost 14 of them. He was for sure my soul mate and we knew there was no other for us. He was the strength for me when I lost my 25 yr. old son to lung cancer. It was a hard 2 yrs. but he stood by my side the whole way. You never know when they leave for work if they will make it back, he worked at night and it was always I Love You and have a safe night. Never imagined this could happen to him so love them and be good to them as if it will be the last time you will ever see them. My heart and soul has never been the same since I lost the two of them, but God helps me carry on day by day. Thank you for letting me share my story,,, I LOVE YOU JIMMY RAY <3<3

• by Deborah Blevins
• 10 years ago

My husband passed away Feb. 16. I left that morning, went out of town for a funeral, spoke to him that afternoon and let him know I made it safely. Tried to call that night, no answer. Couldn't sleep as I knew he would pick up the phone. Called early in the AM, no answer and I knew something was wrong. Asked family and friends to check on him, learned he had passed away in his sleep. Life has not been the same since. My only solace is the last words he said to me was he loved me, be safe and he can't wait until I get home. My phone message was the same. We had previous marriages, leery about trying it again, but when we met we fit together and knew it was meant to be. He was my soul mate and my heart was filled with much love and admiration for him. We were together 13 years, would have been married 10 wonderful years this year. I miss him so much. I love you Tony, you were the perfect husband, wonderful son, great father and step-father and the best Papa to our grandchildren.

• by Rosemarie Richards
• 10 years ago

On February 4 2014 I lost my soulmate he wasn't tested at the hospital the doctor kept assuming his pain was from a back injury he had since November. So she just never tested him. He had a urinary infection that was never treated. The infection spread to his bloodstream causing all his organs shut down. Everything just happened so fast Friday we went to apply for medical insurance. Saturday he slept all day, Sunday I called 911 because he couldn't move his legs, doctors told me he was a very sick man but they would do everything they can for him. Monday they said he wouldn't make it through the night, he was put on a ventilator because he wasn't breathing on his own, Tuesday at 4:30 his heart stopped then again it stopped at 6:30, then his heart stopped for the last time at 7:05. I was laying on his chest when I lost my love. I was blessed with him for 6 1/2 years. He was my protector, my hero, my life I miss you very much David . I love you with all my heart.

• by Buffalo, Ny
• 10 years ago

November 29,2013 my love, my husband, by best friend went ahead of me to Jesus. Diagnosed with Hodgkin's Lymphoma late October, he left late November. We were together for almost 10 years. He was strong and so handsome, until it ravished his body and he could not fight anymore. He is my knight, my protector, my covering. I held him, we sang to him, I prayed with him, they removed the ventilator, I was able to kiss his lips, he breathe for a short while without it and as I looked outside for a split second, he slipped from his life into the next. Each day is another day closer to my Lord and forever in the arms on my sweet husband. I love you forever my baby, save a place for me. I'll be there soon! You will always be my knight!

• by Michelle M.
• 10 years ago

My husband passed away January 26, 2004, after 24 years together. He was my best friend, my lover, and the father of our children. Not a day goes by that I don't think of him. I've watched our children grow and become parents themselves. Our daughter named our grandson after my husband so I hear his name everyday. I see my husband in each of them so I know he lives on forever. My father and two of his brothers have since deceased and I know they all are in heaven sitting around telling stories and laughing about the good times. I know God will take me when my time has come and I look forward to being with my husband again.

• by Lisa Hopson, Maynardville
• 11 years ago

My husband passed away October 25th 2012. He had a accident on the farm and was doing okay from it he then had to have a ng tube and the nurse failed to see that it was in good, that caused problems that put him in ICU. I have never felt that they did what was needed from them, we were married 13 years in Aug 2012 he was my best friend, the love of my life and my whole life we did everything together, and it is so hard not to have him here. I know that I will see him again and that he is better off than we are but the pain is so over barring at times. He will forever be in my memories and my heart I don't think that I could love no one as much as I did him nor no one can love me as much as he did me. See you soon honey.

• by Vanessa; Oregon
• 11 years ago

I lost my husband of 10 years on his birthday. June 18th 2013 it was a Saturday morning and he wasn't feeling well. So we went and ran a few errands that we needed to take care of. We had a few left but I told him lets just go home because you need to rest and he agreed. So we went home and he laid down. So I sat down and watched some TV, I was sitting right next to him. When I turned around to check on him his lips were blue and he wasn't breathing. That was the worst day of my life and I will never forget it! I loved him more than life itself and though nobody is perfect he was everything I had asked for or wanted!! I love you G.Y. Rest in paradise babe, I'll be looking forward till the day we can be together again!

• by Barbara Leonardi
• 11 years ago

My husband passed away on September 29,2012. When we were told he had cancer we both cried. How could this be he was a healthy man. He fought hard and his attitude was he was going to beat this deadly disease, but when he was told he could no longer have any kind of treatment I believe he gave up. We were married for 47 years and we were going to go to Italy for our 50th Anniversary. He was my soul mate, best friend, lover and the Father of my children. I don't know how you get over something like this as people keep telling me it will happen. I feel like my heart has been ripped out of my body. I talk to him daily and look forward to the day we will be reunited.

• by Crystal Varvel, Missouri
• 11 years ago

My loving husband had a bike wreck on Oct. 13 2012, I lost my best friend, my partner in crime where you seen one of us you know you would see the other. He was in my life for 13 years, we met at a truck stop in Denver CO. we both drove trucks and even teamed 365 days 24-7. We finished each other sentences, thought of things at the same time, he was my soul mate. I know he doesn't hurt anymore and I like to believe him and Lord are having the biggest bike rally in the sky. When I hear the thunder all I can think is ride on babe, I struggle bad. I push friends and family away. I just want him back! I miss his touch, the way he looked at me, he didn't even have to tell me he loved me, just looked at me and I knew, still trying to deal. Not doing well but I know he will be waiting for me when I come. I lost my love, friend, soul mate how does a person move on really! I love and miss you soooo Jim keep me a seat for when I get there to ride the sky with you where I belong.

• by Patricia, Alabama
• 11 years ago

My husband of 27 years died July 10, 2013 of lung cancer, and since that time I have had a very hard time getting through each day without him. We were together everyday and he was my best friend, the only person I could talk to and share everything with. Now that he is gone and our child is grown I feel so lost and alone, I feel like I have no one, half of me is missing and I just want him back and well. I miss him more each day, he was the love of my life and I still need him to make everything ok.

• by Kemmy, Nigeria
• 11 years ago

My darling husband died on 14th of August 2012. He fought to live for a year but finally gave up to death right before me in Hospital. We lived together for 17 years . We had four wonderful kids. He died when I needed him mostly in my life. I'm 39 years this month, now alone to care for the kids. Each day your thought crosses my heart. little thing trigger me to weep most daily. Though I do this in closet because of the kids. Am trying to move on but yet is not easy my love. Segun, I will miss you forever. Sleep on my sweetheart in the bosom of our Lord.

• by Natalia Posadas Mazon Liberty Hill Tx
• 11 years ago

My boyfriend/fiancé was in a car wreck. I was going to marry him this summer. His body has passed, but his spirit never left us. I try to move on and hold strong. I wont fail you this time. I pray to god on his own grave that I will quite drinking and all drugs even cigarettes. He was only 20, almost 21, and I'm just 18, almost 19 . We have been together since January 23, 2009, almost 4 full years.

• by Ida
• 11 years ago

Today is my husbands' birthday and my heart is broken again. My husband of 39-1/2 years (though we had know each other for 43-1/2 yrs) died from cancer on December 13, 2008, but it seems like it just happened yesterday. He was my soulmate and the love of my life. He suffered for three years before he died...in my arms. There is not a day that I don't think of him or miss him. People talk about "closure," but I don't think there is such a thing when someone who has been a part of your life for sooo long has died. I miss him everyday....maybe I am being selfish, but, I can't help it, I miss him! I don't cry everyday like I used to, but that doesn't mean I don't cry in my heart. I will love him forever. He and I are waiting to be reunited in Paradise.

• by Steph Tarplee, Worcester
• 11 years ago

I lost my husband suddenly on 25th march 2013, suddenly in Worcester hospital, and if they had scanned him when they said he would still be here, and I'm finding it so hard to think if they hadn't of been TOO BUSY he would be here, the pain and anger is unreal , I love and miss you Ken so very much xx

• by Shelleyl Fitzsimmons
• 11 years ago

On August 2, 2012, I lost my loving husband of 21 years. He got home around 7:30 pm from work that night, we talked for about 15 minutes or so and I gave him a hug and told him that I loved him. I went out with a friend to the exhibition and I came home about 4 hours later and found him on the floor. I will never forget that awful night. He had a heart attack only 43 years old. I knew has soon as I found him it was too late but I still tried everything until the EMS arrived. I relive that night everyday. I lost my Soulmate, My Bestfriend, The father of our 2 beautiful children and I will never understand. Our lives forever changed in a split second. We are trying to do the best we can. I have taken leave from work. I struggle everyday and try to stay strong for our kids. I show a lot of my emotion behind closed doors. I know I will never be the same and I know one day we will be together again, but it is still very hard. Love And Miss You Forever And Always Tim

• by Melody, Babinchok
• 11 years ago

On February 22,2012-Ash Wednesday-I lost my soul mate of 32 years. He came home from work around 5:15pm, sat on the couch and we were just talking then I heard a sound that came from him I turned and him and his head was leaning to his chest and bubbles were coming from his mouth-I screamed and yelled for my daughter to call 91. I pulled his head up shouted his name then I slapped his face and he looked at me with his big blue eyes and said "what's wrong?" and he slouched back over with the bubbles still coming from his mouth. I pulled him to the floor and started chest compressions - the more I pushed the more the bubbles came he was gone in my arms. Finally the EMT's came they worked on him for an hour in my living room-there was no getting him back. I tell this story to all-when I was born my birthday landed on Ash Wednesday-my husband died on Ash Wednesday-I had him cremated-he was cremated on my birthday.

• by Jeanne, Atwater
• 11 years ago

My husband, Andy, passed away on April 14, 2012. We were married for 31-1/2 years and my life is so incredibly empty without him. His body was ravaged from almost 42 years with juvenile diabetes, and although I couldn't bear to see him suffer, I can hardly bear to go on without him. Life does go on, and I am aware of the healing that is taking place in my heart, but still the pain of grief is almost unbearable. NEVERMORE...will he say, "Babe...your alarm keeps going off; you really need to get up or you'll be late to work." or "Don't cry, Honita, or you're going to get a headache." Funny the silly little things that I miss as much as the big things.

• by Kimberly Cantwell, Virginia Beach
• 11 years ago

My husband passed away on July 10,2012 on Our Son's 24th Birthday. I found him passed out on the floor around 5:30 he got up and seemed fine. Our son left for work around 6:45 am and Our bedroom alarm went off a little before 9:00 am and he was lying next to me in bed. I hit the snooze button and then got up and tried to wake him. I called 911 and they came and work on him. They took him to the ER but it was to late they couldn't revive him. That's the day my husband passed away and things have never been the same since. My grief and sorrow is so overwhelming even thou I know my husband is in Heaven and is finally at peace for the first time in his life. My heart just aches to see him once last time and to say "I love you and see you in heaven." but I never got to say a word. He was gone when I woke up and he didn't. After 28 years he went somewhere without me that I can't follow until it's my time. Goodbye, Husband I'll see you when God calls me home.
Love you and miss you,
Your loving Wife

• by Niccole C, Leeds
• 12 years ago

I lost my husband on February 18th, 2010 to lung cancer from asbestos, he was the best thing that has ever happened to me besides the birth of my son, there is not a day that goes by that he is not in my thoughts, I miss him so much and would give anything to have him back with me, we only had 3 years together but those were the best 3 years of my life, the only thing that helps is to know that one day I will see him again!!! I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO MUCH STACEY, RIP MY LOVE.

• by Laura, Grand Jct
• 12 years ago

I lost my sweet husband November 21, 2012 we were going to celebrate our 13th year, it hurts so bad I want him back... but I know he is with heavenly father and he was a body repairman so I know that heavenly father need him to repair his hot rod. I will be with him someday soon... until then babe save a cloud for me love you Craig Ross

• by Gloria Pacheco
• 13 years ago

My hubby passed only a month ago, we were only married 18 months and has so many plans for this summer and bike trips to take, we love to ride, dance and just be together, I feel like a knife has stabbed me in my heart and it bleeds for him. My true soul mate, I know that you will be waiting for me when my time comes, but I will learn to ride our bike and feel you in the wind, and I will ride for us both. I love you Larry Pacheco