I Am Not That Strong

• by Melissa
• 2 years ago

Does it get any easier? I married my husband on July 23, 2010, and he passed away unexpectedly on February 7, 2022. We have 5 boys, 3 girls, and before his passing, I found out I was pregnant. I break down all day long. I keep asking myself how am I gonna go on. To this day I have nightmares of waking up to him not breathing.

• by Stacy Rocha
• 3 years ago

I was engaged in my early 20s. It was a deep love that just couldn't be. Life happened, and I married a different wonderful man, who just happened to have been childhood friends with my ex. My husband and I had a boy together. We're together 16 years. He was only 40 when he died of cancer. Our son was 14, trying to be strong as I screamed with his urn in bed every day for a year.

I recalled during one of his many hospital stays that last year him telling me if/when he passed, to find my ex. He knew he'd take care of me and our son. I ended up getting in touch with my ex almost 2 years after my husband died. My 1st love. We mourned my husband, he loved our son. We got back together with everyone’s blessing. My ex never married. I was it for him. That was 7 years ago. We were going to have a small wedding after Covid, but 2 weeks ago HE passed at 50. My son lost his dad and stepdad. I don’t know how we’re going through this again. Why bless me with 2 great loves for both to be cruelly snatched from me? Endless pain…

• by AKANLE Gbemisola
• 4 years ago

For me, I was with my husband for seven years, got married in April 2017, had my beautiful daughter in September and lost him on 14 Oct. 2017. Same year, same time. I ask myself why me but then I tell myself God allowed it to happen to me because I am a strong woman....God be with us all.

• by Lerato Sangweni
• 4 years ago

I lost my husband a month ago from Covid 19. We celebrated our 10-year anniversary in December 2019 and we were looking forward to many more years to come, but God had a different plan. I miss him every second. He left me with three beautiful children and lots of sweet memories. I try to be strong, but it's difficult not to shed a tear. Every day I cry and look at all the posts. I feel encouraged knowing I'm not the only one who has lost a life partner and soul mate. I find my comfort and strength from the Holy scriptures and remembering how he loved and respected me.

• by Williams
• 5 years ago

Sorry to all who have lost their husbands. I have stopped to read every story. I found I am not alone or the only one affected by the pain of grief to losing your better half. I have been with the man of my life for 7 years. He was everything I prayed for. We got married on July 21, 2018, on my birthday - the best day of my life. On January 6, 2019, he passed away. I felt lost, emotionally drained, and empty inside. A part of me died with him, but with prayer I know I will be all right. We are strong women. Every one of us can tell our own story about the love of our life. Thanks for telling your stories. It helps encourage me to tell mine. My husband would always tell me I'm a winner because someone may never find that true love, so to you all, you are winners because you told your stories. Stay strong and encourage. Let's pray for all who are grieving the loss of a husband.

• by SBP
• 6 years ago

I lost my husband 3 months ago in an accident. We were married for 16 months. He was not even 40 years old. He was a very good person. Actually, I had never seen such a good-hearted person. He was very giving, very caring, and very loving. Now I always keep on thinking...why did it happen? Is it my fault? Many times I think...did it happen to punish me? There is so much sadness in me. It's true nobody can understand. I also used to think I was a strong person. But now I realize I am not strong at all. Now I am just pushing through each day. Every morning I think...why did a new day start? Hope things will get better...hope I will be stronger one day.

• by Maryellen Williams
• 6 years ago

I lost my husband, soulmate, BFF on July 19, 2015 to lung cancer. It was a 7-year battle. We were married at 16 and have 2 sons and 4 grandchildren. We were married 45 years. he was 61 when he passed. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think of him. I cry every day and miss him beyond words. I hate all holidays and wish I could skip them all. Time does not heal me. I miss him more as time goes on. I miss you, Randy!

• by Susan Berry
• 6 years ago

My dear, sweet husband of 37 years lost his courageous nine month battle to AML on May 16, 2018. The loss of my best friend is still unbelievable and unbearable at times. One of the last things he said to me was, "I will just have a different address for a while." The stages of grief are unique for everyone. At first I was handling things OK because I had so much to do and had the immediate support of friends and family. But now, after a couple months, it seems to be getting harder. I find every reason to get out of the house, because there are so many memories at home. I am a Christian and know we will see each other again in Heaven, but I miss him so. Sleep does not come easily, as I often wake up in the middle of the night crying. All I do is bawl! I get comfort from listening to Christian music, but then that special song comes on that tugs at your heart and there go the floodwaters! I often ask God "why," but then answer my own question. Who am I to question God?

• by Patricia McGaughey
• 6 years ago

I can identify with her pain. I lost my husband to lung and bone cancer on April 12, 2018. We had just had our 28th wedding anniversary. We didn't know he had cancer, so the diagnosis was a shock. He passed away 6 weeks after being told he had stage 4 cancer. It wasn't treatable. He was the love of my life, and I miss him more every day. We were together a total of 30 years. I wish it could have been more. He was so smart and loving. I know we will see each other again in Heaven. I can't wait for that day to come. He was 72 and in pretty good health, we thought. I guess God needed him in Heaven, but oh how I wish He had given us more time together.

• by Gladness Nthoroane
• 6 years ago

Hi, I lost my husband to colon cancer on March 12, 2018. We were married for ten years. I wish we could have been married for more than 30 years like others. Living without him is like living inside a coffin while still alive. It is so painful. Every day I wish for this pain to go away, but it's just getting stronger. He left me and our two beautiful kids. Every time I look at them the pain gets deeper. I don't know how I am going to survive this.

• by Amy
• 7 years ago

I lost my husband 3 weeks again. The pain just goes over me again and again. The moments are terrible. I try to be a strong mom, but it's very hard, and part of my heart has been ripped off. Gosh, all the feelings make me sadder. I feel he is still here with me. I miss him so much. Hopefully he can guide me through this. Love you so much. Please wait for me in heaven.

• by Mary Kobani.
• 7 years ago

I lost my husband last year on November 17th. He went to work and I was home waiting for my beloved husband to come back like he always does, but he did not. I cry almost every day of my life, and as it is I still wish he would come back to me. Life without my baby I must say is hell. He would call me MY JOY. My husband loved me so much and I knew he did. I miss him so much and the beautiful things he used to say to me. The things we did together, I miss all of those. I can never forget the beautiful times we shared together. I know he called out my name before he gave up, but I wish I had the chance to hear it from him and to hear what he had to say for the last time, but he left without saying goodbye. I love you, baby, and I miss you so much.

• by Donna Marie Pethel Beem
• 7 years ago

My dear husband passed away August 4, 2015. I was with my mother and father also when they passed away. It was so painful, and I still have many days that I cry off and on and miss their loving presence. It's one of the most difficult things in life to go through when you're separated from your loved ones.

It's a heartache that always stays, but my faith that some say I will be with them again gives me hope when we meet at heaven's gates. I know it's so hard, especially, on holidays and birthdays and anniversaries. I feel so very lonely and like I'm half of a whole...missing my loved one who completed me. I only know that prayer to the Lord and talking to Him helps me through a lot of my sorrow, and He's my strength and hope. God bless all the folks going through these sad times and hope you find comfort from Jesus.

• by Debbie Smith
• 7 years ago

I lost my husband of 47 wonderful years on May 11 of this year. He was my rock, my soulmate, my everything. I am so heartbroken, and every morning I open my eyes I pray it's a bad dream. He was the world's best husband, dad, and papa. Every day it seems the loneliness and grieving gets harder, and I just don't know how to cope and carry on. I have good family and friend support, but the hurt and heartache are always here. He was very sick with cancer, and my last words to him were, "I love you and I will be strong." Twenty minutes later he passed away. The promise of being strong is so hard to fulfill. I just pray to God every day to give me strength. My thoughts and prayers to all of you going through this painful, lasting experience.

• by Pam McEwen
• 7 years ago

I lost my husband of 3.5 years on 7/17/2017. We were together for 37 years. My worst times are when I first wake up and don't remember he is gone. It only takes a few seconds for it to hit me. I hope that ends soon. I get through that and seem like I'm doing alright except for some surprise moments that catch me with my guard down. And having my guard up all the time is exhausting. I tell myself I am a strong woman. But in the back of my mind I wonder if I'm just postponing the inevitable.

Some of you saw a change in your partner's attitude toward you. That was an indication that they felt safe and loved by you. Because you were the only one they could relax with and not have to pretend to be fine when they weren't. That's why it seemed they could be their old self with everyone but you. They knew you wouldn't leave. Accept it as a sign of just how strong your relationship was. Your anger was not directed at your partner but toward the illness that brought you both to that point.

• by Stephanie Giammatteo
• 7 years ago

I lost my husband of 44 years to AML leukemia on December 16, 2015. From the time he was diagnosed to the day he died was only 2 months. He was and still is the love of my life. There isn't a day that passes that I am not thinking about him. On December 16th, a part of me died with him. My second year of grieving for him has been simply awful. The thought of never holding him, kissing him, talking to him and loving him has ripped my heart apart. For all intents and purposes, on the outside I look as if I am carrying on as usual. However, on the inside I am dying. I am 68 years old and we had so many years left to enjoy our life. I only look forward to the time when I will see him once again.. The agony is unbearable!

• by Kam
• 7 years ago

I lost my husband 03/21/2017. His health had started to decline rapidly the last year. His final hospital visit I thought was routine. He'll go in for a week or two then back home. But it was not God's will. I never thought I'd be so lost without him. I always thought I was a strong, independent woman. What I realize now....we were co-dependent. He was my best friend and confident. He always put me and our family first. We were together 38 years, married 34. Like others on here, I've felt guilt that I didn't do more, take charge at the hospital, see his illness for what it was. I got caught up in the daily care and forgot the man I married. I wish I would have slowed down and been in the moment. Emotions change by the moment, just as soon as I think I got this, bam a memory, a longing for what we had. I miss his strength. He had my back. Thank God for family/friends, but I still feel very lost, but I'm trying to figure it out. Three and a half months in is better than one month in, or is it?

• by Barbara M
• 7 years ago

I lost my husband to a vicious bowel cancer on April 23, 2017. We had 26 wonderful years, and I am hollow without him. My heart feels like it has been ripped out, stamped on, and pushed back inside me. The sense of loss and loneliness is all-consuming. I seem to have hit a wall in my grief, unable to get over the wall or around it. I want to be with him. I would give everything I have to spend one good day with him before the vile illness that cruelly took him and then go with him. Life is meaningless without him in it. I just miss him every minute of every day. Grief is totally exhausting. I hope I can find peace. It is just all-consuming at the moment.

• by Donna Bertholf
• 7 years ago

I lost my husband on March 24. I miss him more than I can say. He was everything to me. We had no children and we were both only kids, so I have no one. My mind is starting to trick me by thinking he didn't really love me and I start thinking of any problems we had. What causes this? He must have told me a dozen times a day he loved me. I cry all the time, and the guilt of thinking these bad things is eating me up.

• by Jamie Dilbeck
• 7 years ago

My husband passed away after four weeks in the ICU from Ards and acute leukemia. We didn't even know he was sick; it all happened so fast. He was my rock, my best friend, and a wonderful father to our three girls 16, 10, 7. They didn't get to say goodbye, which hurts them. We were together for 23 years, married for 16. He was my soul mate. Now I feel lost and like I'm just existing. At my husband's wake we played Richard Marx's "I'll Be Right Here Waiting for You" and Allison Krauss' "When You Say Nothing At All. The day after the funeral myself and my girls were on the way to the park to get their minds off what happened, and I started crying because I felt guilty for going to the park, so I turn on the radio and "I'll Be Right Here Waiting For You" came on right at that moment. We all started crying. It was him letting me know he was ok. He has sent many signs since then. I was getting girls on the bus last week and a cardinal bird landed right in front of us and looked at us. We love you and miss you boo...

• by Awo Ukasanya
• 7 years ago

I lost my husband of 7 years 2 years ago. I don't even know how I feel right now. Life just doesn't make sense. When I look at our son, I feel so sorry for him and wonder what's going on in his head. How can he lose a daddy so loving and so dear? I think life has lost its meaning. I stay in bed all day, not wanting to do anything. The pain is unimaginable. I miss you Philip, I really do.

• by Maria Anyanzwa
• 7 years ago

I lost my soulmate on December 10, 2016 to a road accident. This poem describes exactly how I feel. I'm tired of pretending. I see my 14 month old baby and wonder what she is thinking. I wonder if I will ever feel better. This pain changed the person I used to be. I feel dead inside. I miss the little games we had. You were my all. This is just too much for me.

• by Sandy Hix
• 7 years ago

In December of 2015, my hubby thought he had had a mild stroke. We went to the doctor 2 days later. Tests were run, and everything looked great. Doctor suggested an MRI due to continuing mild headaches. A plum sized tumor was discovered. Surgery Feb. 4 where 95% of tumor was extracted, but it was malignant. Radiation and chemo ensued, but due to missed radiation, tumor returned. Next surgery Aug. 30. Not so successful. We celebrated 41 years of marriage on Sept. 6 and he retired after .40 years at Foundry on Oct. 1 but did not make celebration due to hospital stay. Brought him home on Oct. 3 and he passed Oct. 5. He was my precious Oklahoma cowboy, and I miss him so much I hurt constantly. He had an ugly attitude for a while, and I tell myself it was the tumor and meds. I love you so much, Gayle. Please watch over me and help me heal.

• by Florence Banasihan
• 8 years ago

I exactly know the pain you all carry. My husband was taken away from us by bad souls 4 years ago. Since then, the unbearable pain still remains. Every day is a struggle. It was so devastating for the whole family. If there is such a perfect family man, I can say he was one of those, The best partner, my best friend, my soulmate, and the best father to our 2 boys (10 and 8 years old now). I miss everything about him every single moment. I still can't help but cry almost every day. Even our children vividly remember him until now and missing him a lot. We love him so much. Every day we're looking forward to seeing him again.

• by Rosy Sondhi
• 8 years ago

I lost my 50 year old husband on August 30, 2015. He died of sepsis and ARDS. Everything has changed. I miss him very much. I don’t want to move on in my life. I cry all the time. It is very hard for me to live. I have two children. They also miss their papa very much, but they do not show it. I know they are dying inside. I am very helpless. I am very weak. I only want my reunion with my husband. My life is a mess. Though a year has passed, it seems that every day is the same.

• by Monica MacKellan
• 8 years ago

I hear you, I feel your pain. I lost my fiancé on May 15, 2016. We were to be married yesterday, in secret ( we met and fell in love in our 60's, 4 years ago). We were a match made perfect in every sense of the word. His depth of love for me, unlike any I have ever experienced. We did more, lived more than in my 2 previous marriages in 33 years. He was a male version of me and I a female version of him. Like twins. Inseparable, always holding hands, stealing kisses, regardless of who was watching, virtually reliving our teenage years, well beyond.
I hospitalized him on April 25th and on his last day, I removed his oxygen mask, kissed his lips and said, "it's okay Honey, you can let go now". With his very last breath, he did. So I know he heard me and knew I was with him, he was not alone...he was loved and cherished to then and beyond.
To those who are mourning and grieving, I know your struggle for breathe as you weep, the depth of loss indescribable. Blessings to you all.

• by Kristi Lankford
• 8 years ago

My husband died in an automobile accident on July 1, 2016. I'm still processing everything...I'm sad, angry, scared, lost, exhausted, and overwhelmed, but wanted to thank all of you for sharing your stories. I found his "Count My Blessings" list a few days ago, and it humbled me and lifted me, just like your words have done. I don't feel so alone anymore...thank you.

• by Debbie Du-gal
• 8 years ago

Married the love of my life, 4th September '15, 23 days later, he was diagnosed with cancer. 4 weeks after getting married, he was unable to wear his ring, due to weight loss, he wore it on a chain instead. A week before his death, despite the weight loss, he wanted to wear it again, the ring never came off, until the 16th November '15. As he lay in bed, and I held his hand, stroked his hair and face, his ring slipped into my hand, I placed it back on his finger, where it rightfully belonged, I kissed him, told him I loved him, placed his hand on his chest, as he passed away. We were married for 10 weeks and 3 days, he was 45, Monday 28th March is his birthday. I do what needs to be done each day, but there's many a time, I wish I was with him, than live with this pain, I miss him so so much

• by Rhonda
• 8 years ago

My husband passed going on 5 years this year. Tomorrow would have been his birthday. The pain of a loss is deep and if it were physical you could fix it. I want others who have a spouse who has died to know that the pain does subside and happy memories will evolve more and more of your loved one. The first year is most difficult, second year some happy memories start mixed with missing or yearning for your loved one. You learn to live with the loss but never a day goes by you don't think of them. You lose your identity and everything you thought that you were but a new identity will arise, you will learn some things are just out of our control. Rest assured, that it was their time as difficult as it seems. It was their set time to go back home, where we all come from our true home. Loved ones are more able to guide and help us from that spiritual place. Sending lots of love to those who have lost their precious soul mate.

• by Anne, Melbourne
• 9 years ago

I lost my darling husband 6 months ago and life will never ever be the same. We had been together for 48 years, 43 years married. He never enjoyed good health and the last few years I was a carer but we had a splendid life, always travelling. My heart is broken without him and I don't feel like me anymore. I will love him forever.

• by Kim Frey Martinez Ca 94553
• 9 years ago

I'm so alone. I don't know what to do with myself. I do not have strength to do anything. I'm lost. I do not know how to live. I don't even know who I am anymore. I was taking care of him while being in a bad physical condition myself. It's so lonely to be one, not having him at my side. Shopping for one, going to church by myself. Just getting out of bed can take all day. It's so hard. No one can help.
Dear God help me and bless his soul wherever he is right now.
It hurts so bad.

• by Bennysue
• 10 years ago

I also have lost the love of my life. He was my rock and my soulmate. I am lost without him. We were married for 24 years. He is my life.

• by Maureenbarton
• 10 years ago

My husband John passed away on the 12 Nov. 2013 he had a heart transplant 23 years ago so I was lucky to have him all those extra years. I miss him so much it hurts at times. I shall always love you darling Maureen.

• by Michelle M.
• 10 years ago

It will be 10 years on January 26th that my husband, best friend and soulmate passed away 24 hours after finding out he had cancer. The entire family, friends, and his co-workers were in shock. This poem describes how I had to be strong for everyone including our 2 teenage children. When my husband died, a part of me died too. I think of him everyday, still long for him, and still cry when I am alone. I miss him dearly.

• by Betty Banks, Charles City
• 11 years ago

On July 27,2013 at 1:00 pm my husband of 39 years passed away at the hospital with his 5th bout of septic shock. I had quit my job to take complete care of him. I miss him so much that sometimes I feel as if I can't breath. I sit by his grave and cry for hours sometimes. Life just doesn't feel worth living without him. How can I feel any joy again. Randy, I will love you forever.

• by Anne Pickering, Chesterfield
• 11 years ago

I lost my husband Richard to cancer on 9th Feb this year, after suffering 2 yrs, everyday is hard to bear without my hubby whom I had shared my life with for 42 yrs. He was my soul mate my best friend, He was a great dad to my daughter and 2 sons and our special grandson Alfie, He now has another grandson Jenson Richard who he has never seen. I put a brave face on every day when I go to work and everyone says how well I am doing good job they don't see me behind closed doors. It would have been our Ruby Wedding in 2 yrs July 2015 and we had so many plans to celebrate with a Caribbean Cruise. It was not to be and they say god only takes the best, my hubby was the best. I will always love you for ever and ever Honey xxxx

• by Elizabeth
• 11 years ago

My husband passed away 5 months ago. My hearts hurts like I never thought it was possible. I have to put a strong face during the day for people but once I encounter the darkness of night I find myself meeting the worst reality and pain ever. I ask God to help me and make this pain fade away only leaving the great memories together. Our children deserve for the only parent they are left with to live a happy and healthy life. I pray every night for a reunion once our kids are full grown. 10 years were not enough time together. May God cure our hearts and regard this sufferings with a marvelous reunion when time comes. Amen.

• by Grace Onkoba, Nairobi Kenya
• 11 years ago

It was the night of 15th October 2012 when I lost Erick through a massive heart attack, he was such a young man to die leaving me with a 4 year old son Reagan who can't stop asking "why did daddy have to die leaving me with no daddy" It pains a lot to think and know you will never be with us forever. As days goes by I realize am not the strong lady you knew but I try to wear a strong face for our son Reagan. There are those days I can't help tears flowing my eyes when I look at the photos the only image that was left for us. I miss him so much. Erick Mobisa R.I.P.

• by Heather
• 11 years ago

I lost my soul mate Feb 23rd. I have had okay days and suicidal days. Like the rest of you I am completely lost. I have been a nurse for 27 years but its so much different when it's the love of your life. I'm so sorry we are all in this together. I want to see him in a dream but that hasn't happened yet. We were as one with a 3 year old. I'm dying of a broken heart. I just want to be with him. He loved me and I could do no wrong. I too wish I could see him one more day. Hold him once more. May God bless us all because this is a painful journey.

• by Erika, Salisbury Mills
• 11 years ago

I lost my Elliot on August 17th 2012 exactly 5 months and 14 days ago, it was a Friday at 2:55 in the afternoon when he took his last breath. He was diagnosed with dreadful Melanoma on December 1st 2011 and 8 months and 17 days later he lost his fight. The grief and anger consume me, at 36 years old he should not have died, 4 days before our 9th wedding anniversary he should not have died. HE SHOULD NOT HAVE DIED. How can I go on when the days seem to be getting harder, the pain is stronger and I can't understand WHY? I miss him every second of every minute of every hour of every day. I love you More than words can say.

• by Sandra Nelson, Blum
• 11 years ago

I lost my Larry October 19, 2012 to a massive heart attack, we signed the papers on our first home 7 days before, we were married 9 years, together 11. The pain is so deafening Larry is my true love my soul mate, everyone tells me I'm the strongest person they know, this is killing my spirit, I miss you honey!!!!!!!

• by Lisa, Uk
• 12 years ago

My 59 yr old husband Tony my hero lost his battle with cancer. Worked until op end of March 2011 never the same after. He'd say was feeling ok until then.Passed away March 4 2012. Sometimes the pain was unbearable but so bravely smiled until the end, both protecting each other, we only talked about fighting it. Tones last words "I love you babe" I will always remember. Daughter, grandchildren we are lost without you love. Miss your caring ways, all those years hard working and always so reliable. You said If anything should happen you would be watching over us, I believe you are Tone. I can feel you around our home that you loved, unusual happenings must be you. No more pain our Lord decided to take you to paradise where you have earned your wings my wonderful Guardian Angel Anthony. Every day I miss you more and more.
Your Tania X

• by Marie, Nigeria
• 12 years ago

I lost my husband 12th January 2005 when I was 23 year old, he was just sick for four days and he died. I miss everything we shared the time love and the time of misunderstanding. months later I lost my son too. Mark dear it has not been easy at all why do you have to leave like that. I miss your touch. You said just like the ring has no end, that is how your love is I miss everything. love you I am still alone. I wish you were here now. Love you
Marie

• by Alice, Lincolnton NC
• 12 years ago

My husband passed away August 30th 2011 in hospice after 33 days. We were married for 38 1/2 years. It's the hardest thing that I have ever had to deal with. He was my first true love. I try to go on day after day. I've been told that time will heal the pain, but not for me. I miss kissing him and hugging him. and laughing with him, but his spirit is around. I have flashlights come on by themselves. The TV comes on and the computer will come on. and I have seen his spirit, but how I miss him.

• by Gina
• 12 years ago

I lost my husband May 2nd 2012 from GB Brain Tumor. He fought hard for a long time. He was the love of my life. We did everything together. I don't know how to go on without him. It has been the hardest thing I have ever had to face in my life. I miss his so much and I will always love him dearly. I know one day I will see him again it's just getting through till that day that I don't know what I'm going to do.

• by Beth, St Paul MN
• 12 years ago

When he died of cancer in June, we were less than 3 years as empty nesters, an epic love story of reblossoming and refocusing on ourselves, love and joy overflowing like teenage love, and so proud of our fine young adult children. I live for them now and try not to burden them everyday with my sorrow. I created a 4 foot long photo collage of him, us, our family, and it watches over me above our bed. Having been loved so much is greater than anything I can ever imagine. I wouldn't trade for any lesser love no matter how excruciating this sorrow has become.

• by Elizabeth K. Roper
• 12 years ago

My husband died 6 years ago from Cancer. He was first diagnosed with Non Hodgkin's, but the day he died I was told he had bone cancer. He died February 8th just shy of his 48th birthday on the 17th. He was in and out of the hospital for many months. He just got out in Oct of 2005 after a month of being in. We got to enjoy Thanksgiving, and Christmas together with our adult children and Grandchildren. Then January 28th the day after our youngest daughter's birthday he was put back in the hospital never to come out. Feb. 8th he ate a red popsicle said he was going for a nap a "NAP"!! he never woke from. My Friend, My love, my husband of 34 yrs was taken away from me and his family forever. Stay Strong he made me promise him. I've tried in so many way's but I miss him so very much.

• by Paulette, El Cajon
• 12 years ago

I lost my best friend May 4, 2012 to cancer. We found out this past March. He was in Hospice at home. He told us he wanted to die around his family at home. I miss him so much. I know he was having a hard time in his life when he became fully blind 6 years ago. He knew his time was short. I was the one in denial. I never knew how you can miss your soul mate, until now. I prayed so much for him to come to me in spirit. My children, grandchildren and son-in-law all seen him. I finally, got my chance just this morning. I was awaken by his voice as he used to always say to me "Its time to get up and go to work". I miss my love of my life. I know I will see him again in Heaven, but the five senses want to feel and see him now. May God bless all those who are going through the same. Time will heal.

• by Diana Tucciarone, S.C.
• 12 years ago

I lost my husband on Mothers Day 2012. He died of cancer. That day is supposed to be a happy day to all mothers but it will be a day of grieving for me and I do show that I am ok but deep inside there is so much pain it's not easy. We were together 23 years it happened too fast. I just want him back.

• by Gail, Tn
• 12 years ago

I lost my husband on Oct. 23, 2007. He had diabetes and a bad heart. In May of that year, he went to the hospital because he couldn't walk. He had lost the feeling in his legs and was then confined to a bed. He then went to a nursing home and developed dementia. It will 5 years and I still hurt and cry for him.

• by Sharon Albritton
• 12 years ago

I lost my husband February 28th 2008 from cancer and it has not been the same without him. My kids keep telling me I need to go on with my life but I don't have a life without my husband. We were married 43 years when he left me. I wish I could have him back but I know he's better off. I just miss him so much. Iwish I could see him just one last time .I love you so much baby and I miss you.

• by Eileen, Ga
• 12 years ago

Lost my husband of 29 years 6 months ago. He was my reason for waking each morning. This poem describes me. I can hardly wait each day to get home and close the door, close the world out so I can let go and fully grieve the loss of my true love.

• by Rachel Hudson, Shropshire
• 12 years ago

I married the love of my life Chris on the 10th March 2012, just a week later he lost his battle with cancer. Its now been nearly a month since he left me and I seem to be getting worse, not better - I miss him SO much, it physically hurts, I'm crying 24/7 and this ache just wont go away. I would give anything to see him again, to just have one more cuddle. I hope you are at peace baby, I love you so much xx

• by Rebecca, Huntington
• 12 years ago

My husband passed away 2 months ago we have a 19 month old daughter we have been together for 6 years but married for less than a year this poem says it all. I have to be stronger for my daughter. I have to get up everyday like all is well. When she goes to bed I cry myself to sleep. I have a lot of loved ones that want to help but there is nothing they can do. I miss him so much he was my world I can slap a smile on an be the best mommy during the day but when the day is done and he is not there to hold me, talk, tell me he loves me, that good night kiss!! Omg I miss him so much!! What do I do???

• by Elizabeth Lucier
• 12 years ago

My husband passed away on November 11,2010. He had colon cancer, he had battled it since 2008, and then he fought it as long as he could and then his body could not take it no longer, but he fought it to the end. It was the hardest time of my life and our 17 year old son too. His father was the joy of his life. They did everything together. The sadness and the loneliness take over my life almost every night and day. I still wait for him to come through the front door every day. I put on a brave face everywhere I go so no one knows how much I still miss him. I hope that someday my son Adam and I will be happy again. But we know he looks down on us and keeps us safe everyday and night. We love and miss you honey all the time.

• by Jennifer Paillard, South Africa
• 12 years ago

My husband, Pierre passed away on the 29th May last year. He had battled with cancer for 20 months and finally when his body was too exhausted to carry on, he slipped away from us. The lonely nights, the missing, the effort to live without him, the sadness just overtakes me completely. I know what it is like to put on a "brave face" for everyone else because you want to protect them from your despair. He filled our home with his passion for life. He was the life and soul of our existence. And now he is just not there anymore. How we miss him, and how we are so thankful to have known him.

• by Vivian Plank, Woodland
• 12 years ago

To my dear husband Howard:

My husband passed way on Jan 5, 2012 after five months battling with Acute Leukemia. At first, I thought I would be fine and be strong. As days going on, my heart started to hurt more and more. I never thought I would miss him that much. He was such a fun guy to be around and he always was there when you needed him. We have been married for almost 19 years having two wonderful children. He did everything for us. We were a happy family. My kids and I were the luckiest persons on the earth with his presence. Now, the God took him away and also took all our happiness away. We know that he is in peace now. I hope he can see us from the heaven and give us strength. Not hearing his voice and not seeing his smile are so tough for us. Right now and forever, he lives in our memory. Someday, hope that many years after, our broken hearts will heal and will feel happy again.

• by Rita Purcell, Brule Ne
• 12 years ago

Six years ago today I laid my husband to rest. He had went to join God on January 16, 2006 two months before his 47th birthday. We found out he had cancer on Dec. 20, 2005 so didn't get much time to even talk about what ifs because we didn't want to think about death trying to stay positive. He was my soulmate the Love Of My Life and I miss him more than anyone can imagine. Everyday is a struggle there isn't a day that doesn't go bye that I don't cry from missing him and wanting him to be here to hold and to kiss. I tell him all day long that I love him and hope he can hear me. I Miss you and Love You Honey!!!! If there was a stairway to heaven I would bring you back home to me and my family.

• by Linda, Lake Charles
• 12 years ago

A year ago today was the memorial service for my husband, my best friend, my soulmate. He died December 18, 2010, after suffering for 14 months with cancer. At the end, when every breath was a struggle for him, I prayed for him to fly home to Jesus. But when it happened, it hit me that I would never feel his touch again. I was a zombie last Christmas and New Year's Day, but this holiday season I am totally aware and it's been tough. This poem reminds me that I'm still pretending to be strong.

• by Stephanie, Springdale
• 13 years ago

This poem touched me because I just lost my husband on October 3rd 2011 to lung cancer. This is what I do every day. I pretend to be strong I have to because everyone tells me I am strong and can get through this.
Sometimes I wonder and think "I am not that strong".

• by Gabrielle
• 13 years ago

This poem has touched my heart. It Started 11-8-10 that was the day my baby had brain surgery and the day my husband came in. That was also our last 2 weeks with My husband and their father. He had come home on leave from Iraq. It was nice seeing his face and being next to him again. It had already been to long. He was 6 years younger then I but one couldn't tell. He was so smart and bright we were married for 6 years. God how I miss him after he went back. We all cried me a little more so then before. Something just didn't feel right my heart hurt. But I just thought it was me just worrying as always. On 3-21-11 just 15 days before he was due home at 1:05 in the morning my house flooded and it had been a rough week anyways. I had made one comment I shall never make again and that was {CAN THINGS GET ANY WORST} well later that morning at 7:00 it did .I got a that dreaded knock at the door. They had told me he was KIA at 1:05 that morning What are the odds of something like that {RIP WONDER-BOY} I <3 You

• by Jennifer, Redondo Beach
• 13 years ago

My husband died 18 months ago from cancer. He died 9 days after being diagnosed. It was a shock to everyone. We were married for 38 years. We had met on a blind date. I miss him so much. We were always together. I am so lost without him. I will never marry again. I could never love anyone as much as I loved him. I will love you forever.

• by Linda I
• 13 years ago

I lost my husband last December to Cancer, after only One Month from diagnosis. We had been Married for 40 years, I was only 17 and he was 19 when we married, and everyone said we were to young and it wouldn't last. Its the best thing I ever did. Although we have a lovely family. Life just seems so empty without him, I thought I was copying but recently I can't stop crying

• by Springfield Il
• 13 years ago

I lost my husband five month ago...
the pain that is within me is sooooooo great, I need him, I need him, I need him, I cant live without him. Please help me lord, take this pain that I cannot bear.

• by Joy, Connecticut
• 13 years ago

I lost my husband nine years ago, It still hurts like the first day I lost him. Something in me died with him. My heart is now cold I have turned hard and I think my heart has turned to stone. We were married forty two years and so very close. I feel I can never love again, I can't even cry anymore, the pain still lingers, I feel it always will.

• by Nette
• 14 years ago

I lost my husband just two months ago. Pretending is what we do to get through the day - I have become the master of deception. I show people what they want to see, because if they saw how I really felt about losing my one true love, they would hurt even more for me, and I just couldn't deal with that too. I'm not strong, I'm just good at disguising my emotions and getting through the day until I get home and "crash".

God Bless us and get us through this time...AMEN

• by Debbi Gagne
• 14 years ago

This poem has touched my heart .My boyfriend died of cancer 11 months ago and I can relate so well . I guess I'm not that strong as the name of the poem says . Maybe someday I will be stronger , just not today.