No Stem Or Needles For Me Anymore

• by Sarah
• 7 years ago

Hello, my name is Sarah I'm 28 years old, and I've been an addict since I was 14 years old. For the first time in my life I am finally admitting that I am ​addicted to meth and downer pills. I recently got my children taken away from me, and this whole time I've been blaming everyone else when I realize now that it's all up to me. I even learned how to graduate an outpatient drug program while I was high. I realize now after reading these poems that maybe I need help.

• by Brianna C.
• 10 years ago

Hello my name is Brianna. I've been an addict since well as far back as I can remember. I think I was 8 years old or a little younger, when I started smoking pot. I remember my mother telling me how one day my dad and his buddies were passing the bong around, I grabbed it and carried it to my dad. Along the way I put it to my mouth and mom said I took a big hit. I don't remember this, but I'm sure I must have loved the way it felt. I do remember being 8 and drinking to get drunk, and smoking a lot of pot. Then, when I was 12 years old I did my first line of cocaine. Not really my drug of choice, didn't find that out until I was introduced to (METH) at the age of 13. I started out snorting it, then not too long after that I was smoking it. That continued on and off for many years. Then the day came when smoking just didn't do it for me anymore. I had now became the one thing I had hated the most in life, a (JUNKIE).. I am 36 years old, and I have 3 months clean.

• by Atlanta, GA
• 11 years ago

I am what they call a trashcan junkie, my drug of choice is "whatcha got?" but my true loves are heroin, meth and Xanax. I have been clean 27 days today. I know if I were to use again, I will not make it. I still obsess about how heroin seems to instantly take away these bad feelings I still have but I am replacing those thoughts with God's love. For me, I must be surrounded by only people who are of the same mindset. I know I am not standing on solid ground and one step to the right or the left and everything will collapse underneath me. So for now I will stand still, continuing to solidify the ground underneath me until I can move forward. I don't want to die and I can't live like I have been so used to living. I have been an addict for over half of my life. I started using at 14 and I am almost 31 now. I can't keep doing this anymore.

• by Addicted No More
• 12 years ago

I have been clean for 21 months but as like most addicts I sold my soul for just one more. Addicted since 13 I never thought I would get clean these poems help me remember the pain I never want to feel again.

• by Theresa Walpole, NH
• 12 years ago

Thank you for your poems, they make me cry and pray: I have a son that has been an addict of one kind or another since the age of 13, at this time he is in jail for heroin possession, he tells me that same story that things are going to be right this time, and never again, I heard that 4 years ago when I almost lost him to an overdose, he stayed clean after a 30 days program for about two years and I almost die when I say him starting it up again. Thank you. Your poems help me I wish there was a site that family's could share and get support.

• by Bree, North Carolina
• 12 years ago

thank you for writing your poem for us all to read. My fiance has been addicted to opiates for years and I've worked really hard to get him to where he is today. He's still not 100% clean but he's doing way better then he was. He says he has triggers. That make him want to get high. I don't know how that is because I've never had any drug addictions. But I'm going to make him read this poem.

• by Evelyn
• 12 years ago

I am a recovering heroin addict and alcoholic I've been clean and sober for six years now and it's the greatest feeling in this world. It's also a blessing to have my family back in my life.
My children are so proud of me and I was very fortunate to get this far, But I didn't do this alone I had a lot of support from my family, sponsors and God he made it possible!!
AA Works For Me One Day At A Time.....

• by Lisa Warnken
• 14 years ago

My 23 year old son is a heroin addict he is clean 1 year the poem reminded me how hard it can become the pain and fear are too much...prayers and others express their pain help us to realize we are not alone. God bless and thank you it helps.

• by Shannon Howard
• 14 years ago

My name is Shannon I am currently 33 years of age and as of August 18th I now have 3 years clean and sober. I was addicted to crack, heroin, and occasionally used meth. It took my life from me. I lost 2 children, various jobs, friends, my dignity, integrity, self respect for a long while, a 5 yr relationship, ended up homeless, got raped numerous times, and sadly was incarcerated for a total of 5 years. Finding the rooms, a sponsor, God, and actually learning to love myself once again helped me in so many ways. I am so thankful also to an inpatient/outpatient rehabilitation service in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania called The Interim House. Thanks mainly to them I now have my clean time and will only continue to gain more clean time as the days pass!! To this day each morning I say to myself the serenity prayer, and I thank God for all that I now have, and for the things that I was able to regain once again!!!

• by Katie, Oregon
• 14 years ago

I really liked that... I am 14 and addicted to cigs and weed but haven't smoked at all for about a month and the pheen is killing me but I know I can do it thanks this helped A LOT

• by Cassy
• 15 years ago

I hope I can get my mind the way your mind is set. This helped a lot. Thanks