Miscarriage Poem

Poem Not Understanding Why Son Was Taken

Dedicated to my unborn child, 2006.

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My eldest son came with his arm held high to the sky. His identical twin brother came with him, modest and his hand holding his mamma's thigh. They were born a miracle at 23 weeks gestation....

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An Unfinished Life

© more by Madi N Mikala's Mom

Published by Family Friend Poems December 2009 with permission of the Author.

I'm sitting here mystified and numbed with pain
To lose someone so close, yet so far away.
Some say you can't lose something you never had.
If that's true, then how can I feel this sad?
I felt closer to you, my child
More than anyone else around me
Because I felt you so deep within me.
So small, no eye could see
Yet so full of life was felt already.
Disbelief and uncertainty consume my brain
As the tears fall like rain.
Heart pounding hard, feels like thunder.
The sorrow and anguish down under just can't be explained.
Was I being punished for a sin I committed?
Was I to learn something from this and just didn't get it?
Please God, answer me... what did I do to deserve this?
Does he know how much I love him?
'Cause it's your job now to tell him!
I already miss him... I'd do anything to kiss him...
To hold him and embrace the mere presence of him.
I can only hope for one of these days
He comes back to me, this time to stay.
To find it deep within his heart
To give me the chance for a brand new start!

Dedicated to my unborn child, 2006


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  • Montello And Romeo Overall by Montello And Romeo Overall
  • 7 years ago

My eldest son came with his arm held high to the sky. His identical twin brother came with him, modest and his hand holding his mamma's thigh. They were born a miracle at 23 weeks gestation. They had to take a breath. I demanded they give them a chance, "edge of viability and sorrow filled the room." My sons both took the breath required, life support, critical care, the nicu. Mamma didn't know how hard it would be for your little souls. I saw you as perfect. Nothing could ever disguise the beautiful sons I had, however, I realized after a few days, a miracle is not what it seems. For a miracle it was, a question of what it would cost. When Mellow told Mommy it was time to go, the doctor agreed. They called it comfort care. I just wanted to make sure to give you God and peace. Your Daddy let Mamma hold you to my chest as you transitioned to an angel. Your baby brother wanted to go too, but Mamma still had him on a machine. So just a little while later we have you both back to God.12/16

  • Arun S. Raj by Arun S. Raj, BANGALORE, KARNATAKA, INDIA
  • 8 years ago

Only a mother can explain the pain of losing her child. Evokes very sad feeling to read this poem. But what cannot be cured must be endured. Everything is HIS plan. I share the pain.

  • Tina Clark by Tina Clark
  • 10 years ago

I took a pregnancy test July 1st 2014 shocked as could ever be my husband and I were so excited and so happy like never before. We always were told you can't get pregnant dah dah because of your health problems this and that yes this was a surprise and not to be expected. I am a diabetic, insulin dependent, my life seemed as if it has come to a complete stop only now I was pregnant for the 4 weeks the Dr gave really bad news that there was no heart beat and my baby was dead omg I cried and cried telling me I have as having a missed miscarriage I felt Alone and scared being rushed to the ER and loss my baby there having to go through a d&c, being told I shouldn't be pregnant when I've been taking care of myself. How am I suppose to feel? It's been 3 weeks now since I loss my baby and it's still really hard, all I want to do is cry becuase I wasn't told how far along I was :( I'm trying to stay positive but feel alone.

  • Molebogeng Motshoso by Molebogeng Motshoso, Kroonstad
  • 10 years ago

It was early January 2014 when I found out that I was pregnant and I was so angry at myself because I didn't want to have a baby at that time. After a week or two I started to bond with my baby and he/she started to be the only thing that makes sense to me. I loved my baby more than life itself. When I was eight weeks pregnant I started to bleed and rushed to the hospital and Doctor told me that it was a threat miscarriage. I went home and prayed to God. And when I was 12 weeks that was when I lost my baby.
I've never experienced such pain in my whole entire life. I couldn't sleep, I couldn't eat. I remember one day when I was praying and I told God that if he can't take the pain in my heart, he might as well take my life.
I loved my angel with all my heart and even now I haven't found the closure, the pain is still the same.
Writing this...the poor me is crying

  • Phindile by Phindile, Gauteng
  • 10 years ago

I was 31 weeks when I lost my baby on the 14-03-2014. I was looking forward to hold, bath, touch, love and raise you, but I didn't get that chance cause you left me before I met you, mommy loves and misses you my baby amohelang, losing a baby is hard you can't just forget so easily, may the angel of god take care of my little amo till I meet her, may her soul rest in peace, you will always be missed by your mommy, daddy, sister and brother, to all mothers who lost their unborn child you must know that you are not alone you must ask god to give you strength.

  • Tiffany by Tiffany, Ilinois
  • 11 years ago

Mommy loved you before I ever met you, although you were only here for a little while, you still meant a lot to me. I had just gone into my 9th week and that is when my world came crashing down around me. The bleeding and pain, I thought this can't be. Your grandma rushed me to the ER where they said the levels had decreased significantly and it was only a matter of time. although I never met you, I will always love you my little angel. You my dear are my saving grace. Mommy loves you. 7/14/13

  • A. Harris by A. Harris
  • 11 years ago

These poems help me feel like I'm not alone. I lost 2 babies in 2012 and 1 in march or this year . The pain seems to never go away. These poems help me to cope a little. Most days are easy as time goes by but there's never any healing or closure. All I want to do is hold my baby's hand to see what they would look like. My husband and I want too bad to have our child but we just don't know if its possible. All I can do is keep praying and try to give it all to God. People that have the luxury of not going through this can never understand the pain and emptiness. That's why wherever I'm having a down day I turn to these poems to see there are so many women feeling exactly as I do.

  • Rose by Rose
  • 11 years ago

I found out my baby had no heart beat yesterday. I was almost 3 months. That is enough time to get an attachment and an idea of a life with the baby. I changed so many things in my life for this baby. And in an instant everything has been taken away. This is beautifully written, a pain that only someone who has been through this can truly understand. No one should ever have to go through this, much love to anyone experiencing this.

  • Priscilla Jordan by Priscilla Jordan, Saratoga Springs Ny
  • 9 years ago

I lost 2 sets of twins. The first miscarriage was in 2011 and then again in 2012. The sadness never truly goes away, The pain never goes away.

  • Cindy by Cindy, NC
  • 12 years ago

It was 1984, I was 5 1/2 weeks. The spotting started. The weekend was a nightmare. That's when I miscarried. The hurt was bad. It was not over, I started having pain on my right side. I was rushed into surgery for an ectopic pregnancy. The loss of one baby is sad but twins is beyond any words I could find to say. This poem speaks to my heart after all these years. The loss and pain doesn't go away, it gets set deeper in your heart and mind. My neighbor just lost her son, he was 3 years old. This has brought back a flood of emotions. My son lost his baby at 13 weeks. This death has been hard on him also. Men hold it in more than we do, but they hurt the same.

  • Shakirah by Shakirah, NC
  • 13 years ago

I lose my baby about 6 months ago. I was 2 months. It's so hard for me to wake up everyday I lost a big part of my life. I just can't believe that my little angel is gone. At the time me and the baby father was so excited to have our first child. He was so ready that he wanted to even start picking baby names. We broke up now every since I had the miscarriage I really think the only reason we were together was because of the baby. Since I'm not pregnant anymore he left. I have been trying to look for closure but nothing has helped. Thank you for this poem, it really expressed how I feel and I wish everyone else out there the best of luck.

  • Amanda by Amanda, NC
  • 13 years ago

I just lost my baby 3 days ago. I was 5 weeks pregnant, my first child and we had been trying for 7 months. Whe we found I was pregnant I couldnt believe it. We were so happy, and then I start the bleeding and it wouldnt stop went to the ER and they told em it was a threatend miscarrage. Go to the doc the next day and he tells me we have a problem. Takes some blood checks the HCG levels calls me today and tells me the HCG levels are going down. As hard as we tried and we lost it. Thank you for this poem, it really expressed how I feel and I wish everyone else out there the best of luck.

  • Ashley by Ashley, Newyork
  • 13 years ago

I'm 18 yrs old and until now I didn't know how to express how I felt , you did that for me this poem express all the sadness I feel . I still remember the day I walked into my doctors office and hearing the news , I know people think I'm still young but this is so hard to get over. I wish I could have had the moment to at least say I love you . I was only 3 and half week .. I would have been 5 weeks by now . Thank you !

  • Jean Asuncion by Jean Asuncion, Phils.
  • 14 years ago

It made me cry upon reading the poem. Until now I can't explain the feeling I felt. I can't still accept that my baby was gone. I carried her inside my womb knowing that she will die anytime, until time came she died inside my womb. My baby died last March 17, 2010 and until now I can't stop from crying and longing to have her.

  • Carole by Carole, Pasadena CA
  • 14 years ago

Wow, this poem brought tears to my eyes. I just lost our baby a week ago. I have been trying to look for closure but nothing has helped. It had taken us four years to conceive. When we finally did, I thought this was it. Your poem was amazing, thank you !

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