A Hidden Horror

• by Christina
• 13 years ago

I once did cut myself with a scissors. The other time I stapled the space in the middle of my fingers. My parents found out and thank god they understood what I was going through.

• by Harley
• 13 years ago

Hey I am 14 and when I go school people always say to me are you an emo and people just don't get that I am what I am. I am part emo, part goth and full on biker so at the end of the day I think people should learn that I grew up like this and I will never change. I am a biker punk emo gothic kid and you can't change me

• by Bri
• 13 years ago

Hi. I am 14 and I have been cutting since November 2010. My parents found out I was cutting and my mom was just upset. She was trying to make me feel better out of the situation. She even said that it was kind of brave. and she said she wouldn't be able to do that. My dad looked like he was fixing to cry. I stopped a while then started again. They don't know that. They think I have completely stopped. I want to tell them so bad but I am scared. It is so hard to stop. Most of my friends think I have stopped as well. I went through a lot before my parents found out. It went around school, these girls would laugh and ask questions. I hated it. I know I am still going to get it next year. But oh well. Nothing I can do but try to stop. I can totally relate to this poem. Try to quit before it is too late.

• by Mia
• 13 years ago

I'm 33 years old I started cutting myself at about 14 to release the built up anger frustration and pain I had in my life. As time progressed and I grew older I'd cut deeper and more frequently. The reason we continue to cut our selves is it releases endorphins in to our body to stop the pain and as time continues it becomes addictive then it will eventually not be enough your body always wants more and starts to make less and less causing us to go deeper to release more endorphins into our blood stream. At age 20 I started using drugs and drinking again, little by little my body wanted more I became a full blow addict by 23. I am the mother of 3 children one I had at 14 years old, one at 16 and the other at 18 before I noticed what happened I was loosing my whole life, my world was up side down I've since got help, quit drinking, cutting and drugs. I beg each of you to seek help before you turn in to me. Now that I'm clean my children are 17-13 and its hard to have relationship with them when I messed up.

• by Hiden Inside
• 13 years ago

I am 11 I have been cutting or scratching for a year and people found out. They think I just want attention but I don't. I am just trying to forget everything. When I cut it is as if I have traveled to a new land. I may be young but I have feelings too.

• by Karrie
• 13 years ago

This poem is great I know how it feels.. I haven't been cutting very long and I hate doing it its just so hard I feel so alone.. I don't really have anyone to talk to my friends that found out don't understand they make harsh comments about it and make me feel like crap..it's just so hard.

• by Brittney, United States
• 13 years ago

I had this same issue, when I was in 7-9th grade, I'm in tenth now, and Everyday I saw the people I hurt, The kids I used to talk to wouldn't look my way. I got help, I Actually stayed in a "safe" place for a month They Helped me, And I now relieve I just wanted out. I hurt family, and Friends. I No longer swim, and Wear dresses. I have scars up and down my arms. I can't stand looking at myself. I Think it's best for all of you young girls to try to stop. Because My best friend killed herself shortly after she learned I cut. Please get help, Because you have your whole life to become someone and Be somebody. I hope the best works out for all of you. God Bless.

• by Cassia, Wichita KS
• 14 years ago

This is a great poem. It's good to let things out through writing. I wish I could do that. I am 16 and I started cutting in 6th grade. I did it, not to kill myself, but to release my pain. Honestly, it helped. Although it isn't a healthy way of coping. No one knew at first until my brother found a suicide note and gave it to my parents. They found cuts on my wrist and I told them I would stop. Well...I didn't. Things got worse in 7th grade when I started having feelings for a girl (same sex). I cut more often and attempted suicide twice (not by cutting) Once I ended up in the hospital for several days. I had overdosed. Cutting can lead you to do worse things, like suicide or even drugs. I have done all of the above. To help with my depression I have tried cutting, pills, pot, cigarettes, writing, drawing, therapy, snapping my wrists with rubber bands. My therapist, friends and family have helped a lot. I no longer cut, but what they don't know is that now I burn myself on occasion...

• by Amy
• 14 years ago

hey just wanted you to know your poem is really good. I still cut I started when I was 10 and now I am 19. I cut about 4-5 times a day. I can't stop, no one knows except for my one friend who has sadly passed away and I can't get myself to stop. It has become an addiction please stop and do not end up like me cause I feel ashamed of myself but I still can't stop no one knows

• by Katrina, Az
• 14 years ago

This made me realize that there are lot of us going though this. I used to cut since 5th grade. I'm a freshman now. I haven't cut in 7 months. My friend asked me if the next time I was suppose to hang out with her, I found out that she cut herself and died, or got an infection, what would I think? I started crying. Thinking about loosing her. Or even knowing that I was risking my life by cutting, even if they were not deep. I couldn't imagine loosing someone I love and that's when I decided I really need to stop. It was hard to find other ways to release pain. My parents do not know I cut either. I got really used to hiding it. I don't anymore, but I still think about it. There are other ways. One thing I do is like work out really hard. It's like cutting when your really challenging yourself. Try to stop cutting, I know it's hard but you can do it. Just remember you'r not alone.

• by Emily, England
• 14 years ago

I'm 13 and I have been cutting for about 5 months now. I still do but we have these people called champs at my school who are meant to look after you. But my friend, who is a champ saw my wrist and it is her duty to tell someone, so she told my head of year. And now I feel much better but I still cut. I'm addicted!

• by Rachael
• 14 years ago

Hey, my names Rachael and I'm 15 . This poem is beautiful . It truly is. I am also going through this too . It started in October/ November 09 . The reason I started was because of self pressure I put on myself . I think I have to be perfect and get good grades and be pretty and be "popular" and what not . Then I told my teacher that I trusted and he told me to talk to my school counselor. I talked to her and I felt much better. She helped by telling my mom I cut myself. Now, I see a counselor and I can talk to my counselor openly about things bothering me. I still am tempted to cut myself and sometimes I do but not as much as I used to since I have all this help now. But the greatest thing I did was tell someone. I would advise not telling your friends and tell an adult. Because they would just see you in a whole different light and it could possibly ruin friendships. Just get up the courage to tell someone and you'll feel a whole lot better Love yourself and Love your life . <3 :]

• by Wendy
• 14 years ago

Hey, well just wanted to say awesome poem :) and also that I completely understand all of you! I used to cut to I didn't do it as long as all of you, but I still did it. It is something hard to stop. I did it because of problems at home and like many of you said it felt like it made my problems go away, it released the pain and stress that I had. And, it felt so Good!! But that's just what it seems like, when in reality it isn't that, it is just going to cause more problems and things won't get better this way. So everyone who reads this, Try REALLY REALLY HARD to STOP!! I know its hard, in fact I still get urges every now and then that make me want to cut!! But I have to fight them! All of us that have this problem HAVE TO FIGHT THIS!! There has to be at least ONE PERSON who cares about you!! And if there isn't I WILL BE THERE FOR YOU! I will always be there for whoever wants me to be there for them, or if I see that they need someone. So Please Stop, take care and get help.

• by Brittany, Chippewa Falls WI
• 14 years ago

please help....I'm 15 years old and I have started cutting earlier this week. I don't want to do it anymore but it feels like it is making all of my problems go away but I know that it isn't. I started to do it because I was fighting with my parents. they don't know and I want to......HELP!!!!!

• by Jessica
• 14 years ago

Hi, my name is Jessica. I am 15 and have been cutting since I was about 13. After my parents found out the first time, I got put in counseling for it. They don't know I still do it. I just can't stop. First it was just once a week, and then twice, and now I'm cutting two or three times a day. What's bad is that I do it throughout the day because if I don't then I just start feeling down. Anyways, I just wanted to say that I like your poem. Its really good.

• by Sydney, New York
• 14 years ago

I know how you all feel I'm in 8th grade and I cut myself and I do it because I feel like I should take the pain out on myself not others and I want to tell my parents but I'm scared they won't love me anymore...what should I do?

• by Ace Ash
• 14 years ago

I am in a state hospital for self injurious behaviors

• by Abby, Ohio
• 14 years ago

Hi, I'm Abby and I have the problem of cutting too, its not the easiest thing to stop doing and people just don't understand that ... I've been cutting for about 2 years now ... but it still seems so new, no one really knows I do it, and half the people I hang out with thinks its ridiculous so I don't even get the point of trying to tell them. I've talked to some therapist but they never help. My mom found out and she totally judged me ... it was crazy, but anyways. I love your poem. and I understand

• by Sarah, Shenectady NY
• 14 years ago

hey my name is Sarah and I'm 19. I started cutting in January 2009 and stopped in November 2009. and I'm going to tell you now that it wasn't easy and I still have urges to cut but I fight them. I even have talked to some therapists along the way. so if I can stop anyone can stop. good luck to everyone who cuts that is reading this.:)

• by Lauren-jayne Carlisle, England
• 14 years ago

Hey .. I understand your poem, am now 16 and I have been cutting since I was 10, had a bad past and cutting made everything better but now my scars are still there and I do still cut sometimes, but the scars make me ashamed of my body, I cant wear sleeveless t-shirts or anything . my mum found out 3 years ago I just explained how I felt and how I feel about everything in my life she understood and got me help :) its working now I still go see someone and I feel a lot better maybe you should try it : x good luck x

• by Rawr
• 14 years ago

This relates to me soo much. I'm 14 and I have never told anyone that I cut myself and I have been doing it for about 2 years now. I don't do it to kill myself I do it to get a break from reality. it makes me feel better about life, its kind of like my release from life. its an addiction, I've tried to stop but I know its just not happening. People think I'm stupid but they really don't understand what I go through. I just hope one day I will be able to stop one day before I really do hurt myself.

• by Sarah, Toronto
• 14 years ago

Hey I'm Sarah. I'm 15 and I cut myself. I can relate to this poem a lot... I also write poetry. Some people don't understand that cutting is a serious addiction.. I just hope one day I gain the strength to stop because I know its breaking me.

• by abigail
• 15 years ago

Hi I'm Abby and I have kind of the same problem as you. My parents are divorced and my family fights a lot. I can't stand it so I cut all the time it gets worst. I need help I know but I cant bring up the courage to tell my parents. I just feel is would be better they didn't know I started again. I fell like it will save them pain. but in reality I know I'm hurting them more not telling them.

• by miranda
• 15 years ago

that poem really got to me...I'm in the same situation you are..my parents don't know...they used to, but they think I have stopped, but now I realize I need to tell them...I need help...

• by karla
• 15 years ago

Hey I'm Karla I'm in 8th grade too. I cut. I started 4 years ago my mom found out that I cut, I caused so much pain she started to cry like I never saw her before. I caused her pain so much pain, I'm getting help but it doesn't work my problems come back and they haunt me, my parents got divorced 6 years ago. My dad went to jail for a stupid reason. Although I try to live like a normal person I have to face the fact that, I will never be a normal child. Before you tell your parents think about how your going to tell them, tell them all you feel and make your self very clear. This will help trust me I have been through that, though I still cut I try not to but now it has grown it has become my life. Don't end up like me, all you do is live in pain-I have been 6 times to the hospital 4 attempt of suicide don't ever try it trust me you will regret it.