Marcia A. Newton

Why do I fade to gray when everyone else is bright?
Why am I without color living between black and white?
Why am I held captive in a place that is unknown?
Why am I invisible and living in the gray zone?

There are no right answers, and there are no right choices.
There are too many brain knots with too many voices.
Not enough trust in the forces of life,
and no one to save me or be by my side.

It's being afraid to stay and afraid to move.
It's a struggle between two sides in a waiting room.
It's hard to let go and let life just happen
or break away from what was or what I imagine.

But, I must find balance and self-acceptance
by moving past mistakes while living in the present.
To break free from the gray zone and completely let go,
I must clean the slate and reset life's flow.

In my life's reset, I can be free
to be the person I am with a life meant to be.
I'll be ready to adapt the narrative of my life
and leave the gray zone behind to be colorful and bright.

Picture this: 
being my someone special to love
being the one I want to take care of
being a part of my very soul
to be the one I'd never let go.

Picture this:
being a companion day or night
being a partner in my life
being a friend that I can trust
to be a lover that I can lust.

Picture this:
being the reason I want to breathe
being the one I want and need.
being the reason my heart beats
to be my everything when our lips meet.

Picture this:
being the love I was destined to find
being the music that soothes my mind
being my shelter when I need calm
to be my home when in your arms.

Picture this:
being the one who holds my heart
being together when each day starts
being the one in my life's next chapter
or to be my happily ever after.

There's a place called home where everything feels right,
a place that's enchanting and beautiful and its own paradise,
a place of wonder and excitement and its own playland.
This place called home is known as wonderland.

Laughter and love overflow in wonderland,
where hopes and dreams are fulfilled as planned.
Delights and marvels are awaiting in utopia
where blissfulness and surprises are part of euphoria.

Wonderland is a dreamworld of make believe,
a place of beauty and fantasies.
It is a world of myths and magical things
beyond the Earth where Heaven begins.

Wonderland is happiness and infinite inspiration,
a space to live a love story or a wild obsession.
My wonderland exists wherever you are.
My heart is with you no matter how far.

In wonderland we are never apart,
and thoughts and desires keep us young at heart.
My soul craves a time when it's not a fable
to live a charmed life as long as we're able.

Is it just a fool's dream to feel this way
to cross into a world different as night and day?
All I need is a vivid imagination
to take me to wonderland on any occasion.

To the love of my life, I want you to know
I carry you in my heart wherever I go.
My heart has always been and will always be with you
because I waited all of my life to love someone like you.

To the love of my life, I loved you from the start
and I will love you forever with every beat of my heart.
From the moment you came into my life, I've loved you everyday.
You are every dream I've ever had yesterday and today.

To the love of my life, you are the one I want and need.
and you are the best love that has ever happened to me.
I found my Heaven here on Earth when you hold me in your arms.
Every part of my being desires you. You're my wish upon a star.

To the love of my life, you bring out the best in me.
God brought you into my life is something I'll always believe.
I love to gaze into your eyes and see myself in you,
and I love to kiss and hold you close whenever I'm with you.

To the love of my life, you are so loved.
You are my greatest treasure and you're my only one.
I will never get tired of loving you and my love will never fade.
I choose to fall in love with you each and every day.

To the love of my life, you touch and hold my heart.
I start each day thinking of you and you're my very last thought.
You are my life and my love, and I don't want it any other way.
My life is beautiful because of you now and for always.