why do I think putting this needle in my vein
is going to take away the pain
is avoiding my issues just going to make them go away
or are they still going to be there when my high is gone the next day
this upper is my downer but I'm already down
can I get any lower
I'm lower than the ground
why is getting back on my feet so hard
the pain to my body is nothing for I am emotionally scarred
why does it feel like when I'm sober I'm high
but when I'm high I feel sober
why can't this affliction just stop and be over
I ruined my teenage life to this point
I lied when I said nothing more was to come of that joint
weed was gateway drug for me
then came sherm, ex,and pcp
but the needle felt so right.
so did wrapping the belt around my arm so tight,
my high came fast and with out any pain,
but my once sunny days are nothing but rain,
but that's my fault and I messed up bad.
rehab couldn't stop me,
I wanted to get high,
but I do what every addict does,
I cheat steal and lie,
so now I'm out and free,
but this euphoric rush I crave has taken yet another member of my family,
now I sit around thinking to my self " DAMN"
I'm On the outs and I'm still feeling bad,
but my life is now in my hands so I should be glad...
Poem On Trying To Stop Drug Addiction
I am a proud granny of 3 precious grand daughters that belong to my middle daughter named Rebecca and of 2 grandsons whose mother is my oldest daughter. I also have a daughter named Sarah, my...
The Needle
Published by Family Friend Poems April 2008 with permission of the Author.
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I am a proud granny of 3 precious grand daughters that belong to my middle daughter named Rebecca and of 2 grandsons whose mother is my oldest daughter. I also have a daughter named Sarah, my youngest. Rebecca is a meth addict and Sarah is an addict also of meth and any pain pill!
I am also a recovering addict, pain pills! My grand daughters are 12, 10, and 9. Ten months ago my daughter walked out the front door and left 3 precious daughters, confused and brokenhearted. My sweet Sarah has been using meth for 7 years. She weighs 102 pounds and has lost all her teeth except 5!! I have been clean 12 years, 1 month and 4 days. As a granny I feel guilty for all they're going through. Their father is addicted to pain pills and it's like they have lost both parents. Meth is a demon drug! I don't know my daughters anymore. Only by Gods grace I am alive today. If you are using ANY drug please know there is hope, please don't give up. If you have someone on drugs, let them know they matter.