In my mind I hold a picture
Of how we used to be.
For everything you needed
You could turn to me.
I still see that sweet faced baby
And the toddler full of joy,
The charming little person,
And the athletic growing boy.
Every phase I relished
Treasuring every day
All the while knowing
Someday you'd grow away.
I guess I wasn't watching
Not holding up my end
Because I swear I never saw
When evil stole in on the wind.
I sensed something was different,
I knew something was wrong,
But tried to justify my part -
"The Single Mother's Song."
When I finally woke up
Nowhere left to hide,
I cried and swore, yelled and begged,
But I was always on your side!
Through all the broken promises,
The stealing, and the lies,
Somehow I still could find my son
When I looked into your eyes.
The phone became my enemy.
Each ring could bring my death
Because I feared the words I'd hear.
I lived holding my breath.
The road has not been easy,
But I've always lived in hope
Because I know you're not the enemy.
The monster's name is DOPE.
This disease will never leave you
You'll struggle one day at a time.
You won't always be a junkie,
But you WILL always be MINE.
The Monster's Name Is DOPE
There is something worse than death or jail. It's the land of nothingness full of evil spirits and lost souls. That place where you can't die and you have no one or nothing. This keeps me...
My Josh
Published by Family Friend Poems June 2011 with permission of the Author.
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There is something worse than death or jail. It's the land of nothingness full of evil spirits and lost souls. That place where you can't die and you have no one or nothing. This keeps me chasing God and not dope.