Never Be

All of these thoughts running through my head
I don't even want to crawl out of the bed.
First, there are the feelings of love that my mind and heart shared.
I feel like you really never even cared.

I loved you more than anyone or anything.
I would have given you everything.
Anything I was able to give,
That's what I did.

I told you that I would never forgive a cheater.
That's the number one thing that has made this easier.
Easier for me to move on, to not look back.
I feel like everything you made me feel was all just a hack.

I promised to be there for you no matter what,
Through the good times and the bad, all under God.
God doesn't want us to be apart
Or we wouldn't have been together from the start.

Now I fill my nights with friends and people to keep me busy.
I've met new friends, guys and girls, but it still isn't easy.
I never wanted anyone else more in my life,
Just my beautiful wife.

I just don't think I can be friends with someone who has hurt me.
Not in this way, you see.
This is going to be the hardest thing to do.
All I wanted in my life was to spend it with you.

I guess in a lot of ways you never really knew me.
I didn't think it was hard to see.
You never could get over the things in the past,
But I know we could have made us last.

I wanted you to be the mother of my child.
The little guy would have been wild,
But now these are my dreams that never came true,
Just my heart and mind being blue.

I love you more than anyone or anything in the world.
Just hope what you did was worth while
Because if it would have been up to me,
All this mess we see would never be.