I wanted to give up so badly today and let my addiction win,
but my heart is too strong to let my body give in.
I've been down that road too many times before,
a life and a struggle, that I don't want anymore.
I will keep fighting, and I will move on,
until all the side effects of my addiction are gone.
Taking a lifetime to recover from this,
but all the pain and suffering I do not miss.
I'll never forget the person I left in my past,
so beaten and broken, from living life too fast.
The pain and the memories, I swore I'd never let go,
the tears and the heart break I finally let show.
I had to face myself, to learn who I was inside,
running for so long, I knew I could no longer hide.
I wanted out, I wanted to break free of this,
but I have to admit the pills and the dope I still miss.
It's sad that I let myself go to my addiction because I lost everything. My wife, children, and close friends. Several times I tried to stop, but I've discovered that I was powerless over it....
My Fight With Meth
Published by Family Friend Poems May 2011 with permission of the Author.
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Megan, please take this for what it's worth! We look for anything to hold onto to kick the habit. This I know too well as whatever works to keep us sober is a blessing! I'm from a religious background as my father was my pastor... Just please keep things in perspective and don't trade your meth addiction for another addiction. People like us tend to trade our meth for some other thing that we can hold on to! I've struggled with addiction for most of my life from the age of about 11 or 12. It's NOT an easy road as we just have to wake up each morning with the thoughts and hopes of I'm not going to use! I started out in minutes and then to half hours and then on to hours! Not a moment goes by that I don't think about using. I just try to find OTHER things to occupy my time and my thoughts! I came from a very privileged family and had everything handed to me, and you would think that my life would have been perfect! Addiction hits every income status!