What Now?

Your knees are shaking.
You see that red line appear.
How far can you go from here?
You look in the mirror.
All you see is a face full of fear.
What now? you think.
Would you rather have a child with nothing
Or have a life full of something?
You want to tell him.
Full of excitement, you can hardly hold a tear.
Look, something is growing,
But you know the consequences.
What now? you think.
A tiny image appeared.
Now you fear
What now? you think.
How can you destroy something so dear?
You shed a tear, hoping God will hear.
You pray, "God, please don't let it fear
Tell them I didn't mean for it to happen.
But for now, God, please hold my child dear."
You hear the tiny sound of a drum.
That's when it all goes numb
All you can hear is that heart go thump.
What now? you think.
The decision is yours, they say.
No matter what, it's yours.
A cruel blessing in disguise.
How can you tell this guy?
What now? you think.
The day has come.
One last sound.
It won't stop jumping around.
God, where can you be found?
You feel it moving.
Maybe it knows what you are doing
To stop that poor little baby in the making.
What now? you think.
It's done.
You feel shunned.
Maybe you got to feel all of the pain.
Your tears pour down like it's raining.
Now you think what have I done?