Lily Rae

I cannot think
I cannot simply be
Without you
Right beside me
I didn't realize how much I loved you
Until you were gone
So I pine for you and I long
And write a sad, sad song

I thought it would be easy
But this time it's I, who deceives me
Pictures of you cover my room
The sad silence of loneliness seeps in to consume
My tears stain my cheeks
As I recall the coffee shop where we'd meet
The first kisses and the first dates
All the times you made me blush
All the racing heart beats

I loved you
And I still do
But it doesn't change what you did to me
The times you put me down
How hurt I was, I knew you could see

I should've known by the glare from your eyes
I'm as guilty as can be
You know what you do
I know you knew by the crack in my voice
When i said it didn't hurt and I still loved you

I resent you
Till you push me down
And whisper those pretty lies
You say that if I don't want it then why am I shaking
I guess my body is wrong, I know my body defies

When I was feeling blue
You blamed it on me
You remember, don't you?
Told me I was childish
Made me feel like a fool
You hit me with a kiss
I've grown so tired of this

I cover my ears
When you scream those dirty words
Tell me I'm a whore
It wont make me love you any more
You can hurt me all you want
I wont run, I know you love the hunt
My legs are growing quite weak
You turned a beautiful world to something so dull and bleak

I can't do this any longer
I've grown so much stronger
I'll ignore your pleads
Oh how your heart bleeds
For someone you never really loved

But for all the times I stayed regardless
I hope that you regard this
As I solemn goodbye
Filled with the tears I cry
A heart that's breaking
And with hands that are shaking
I write my last words
To my thoughts that went unheard..

You come in waves
And suffocate me sweetly.
When I think I'm okay,
You sneak in discreetly.

Each time we meet
You wear a new face.
Always different,
You know how to greet me.

You fill me up
Just to pour me out
Into a sea full of agony
Disguised as bittersweet beauty.

My hands grow cold,
Eyes grow weary.
So sad I hurt the ones
Who love me dearly.

Nights become days,
And the days grow long,
A never-ending
Melancholy song.