Rabab N. Hammoud

I aligned my perception on that day.

I was a newlywed with to much on my plate.

I wasn't speeding or turned away.

I only wish it wasn't me behind the wheel, on that clear autumn day..

I was aquatinted with my biggest fear and I was the perpetrate.

A tragedy I couldn't obviate.
When my bumper hit the soul of Gerilee Blake.

Taking her life like it was mandate.

They all told me not to cry, that it was fate.

What none of them understood was, what my eyes saw on that day..

How In an instant, my heart would eternally break.

What they perceived as an accident.

I couldn't help but to take some blame.

Subconsciously, punishing myself, I drove everyone away.

Including my companion that took my forever and swayed.


I became secluded and my life felt delayed.

I wrecked what I took all my youth to build, on that day..

Rest in peace Gerilee Blake. I am sorry everyday.

My biggest inspiration is to look into the eyes of the one I inspired.

Solely focusing on their situation and how it transpired, no selfish motives or intent to perspire.

I've went down low, stood every higher.

Endured life in a shack, and in an empire.

In both states, I had the same desire.

Inspiring another, was all I wanted to acquire.

I strive to leave a mark everywhere I go.

Whether it be a few words of kindness or bliss of warmth.

So when my existence fades away, a lingering comfort will permanently reside in the hearts, of those who loved me!

I aligned my perception on that day.

I was a newlywed with to much on my plate.

I wasn't speeding or turned away.

I only wish it wasn't me behind the wheel, on that clear autumn day.

I was aquatinted with my biggest fear and I was the perpetrate.

A tragedy I couldn't obviate.

When my front bumper hit the soul of Gerilee Blake.

Taking her life like it was mandate.

They all told me not to cry, that it was fate.

What none of them understood was, what my eyes saw on that day.

How in an instant, my heart would eternally break.

What they perceived as an accident.

I couldn't help but to take some blame.

Subconsciously, punishing myself, I drove everyone away.

Including my companion that took my forever and swayed.

I became secluded and my life felt delayed.

I wrecked what took all my youth to build, on that day.

Rest in peace Gerilee Blake. I am sorry everyday!

When everything around  discourages you,  remember the deep ocean we swam in, & the days we almost lost our breath, drowning.

When they smiled as we frowned.

Your a dedicated queen that is yet to be crowned.

I hope you always keep me in a secure place in your heart.

Know I've been praying for you from the very start.

I lost my dreams but didn't lose my heart.

Fortunately you were the only one living inside.

That's what kept me alive.

To have the chance to give u the most important reminder.

Their is No one is more capable then you.

You will master this as long as you believe that it's true.

Remain firm in faith, never decrease your aim.

As I always tell you.

Never let the fear of striking out, keep you from playing the game!