Poems by Michael J. Malone

As I pick this book up to write
I find myself turning to this page
To tell this story yes that's right
Starting out to describe this stage

The pen will not do it justice
Of how I felt on that day
Not even through a lengthy sentence
But I will do my best to show the way

The way in which a drop of water
That day tore my heart in two
I wondered deeply at this matter
But the truth is I barely knew you

To understand at that instance
And comprehend what was on your mind
What could cause something so precious
To escape your eyes, it was a sign

For it was in the very moment
That I turned the page to write
Though not the cause I would seek atonement
To do what I could to make it right

To see your smile once again
Even for whatever part I play
To see your life-giving smile sustain
This moment forward from day to day

There have been moments just to sit quietly
In places of uncertainty and of the unknown
Furthest away from all which represents society
Surrounded by nothing and completely alone

Alone to my thoughts thinking in sincerity
What happened to bring me to this place
A place of reflection in complete solidarity
Severity of anxiety is very difficult to face

Some say you should just let it go and relax
Why do you dwell on things you cannot control
The dark side says just mind your own beeswax
With words readers probably wouldn't condone

It's difficult to explain the cause behind the pain
Or why the attacks have a tendency to occur
I definitely don't like what it does to my brain
Causing all my thoughts to be a sudden blur

Crippling it becomes causing the need for sleep
Break this horrible spell and bring this day to an end
So that for another day my wits I may truly keep
And those I hurt by my sins completely amend