Kimmi Lewis

Popping pills in the morning,
Popping pills at night.
Cutting deep into my skin,
Holding my blade tight.

Dressed up to look my best,
When I actually looked my worst.
I thought all this alcohol
Would refresh my troublesome thirst.

I wanted kids when I was older,
I wanted good news to tell.
But who tells their children
They wanted to go to hell?

I had a lot of problems.
Sexually abused and bashed.
Both my arms, wrists, and legs,
Had been both bruised and gashed.

I thought of myself,
As a strong girl.
I wasn't strong at all.
This is what made my toes curl.

I had decided to stop,
And get my life on track.
Because I realized the life I wasted
I was never getting back.

So I stopped the hurting,
For once it was pretty easy.
I stopped looking like an easy target,
And I stopped dressing sleazy.

I'm a better person now,
And I'm turning 16.
I can't believe how young I was
And how I was so keen.

All the drugs and the alcohol,
The cutting and pain,
Have all disappeared.
Now I'm one step ahead in this game.

I loved you so much.
I didn't care what others said.
When people said you're not loyal,
I'd stare and rock my head.

Then you did it to me.
You slept with my best mate.
I felt really betrayed.
My head was filled with anger and hate.

I honestly can say now
I wanted to kill the both of you.
I also wanted to say
I could really tell, I knew.

But I trusted you,
I trusted her as well.
But now I couldn't care less.
What stupid stories you tell.

You told me it wasn't true.
Then you changed what you said.
I really really hate you.
I want to bust your head.

But everything's ok now.
We have both moved apart.
Treat this new girl better.
She has giving you her heart.

I didn't know you very well,
But I knew you were Pop.
I really miss you every now and then.
And I will never stop.

I wonder how life would be
If you were still here,
If we would all be happy again,
But I know you are always near.

Looking down from where you are
I hope you're proud of me..
We all really love you,
And I hope the love is what you see.

My family has parted
ever since your death,
But maybe that's how it's meant to be,
set off for living life the best.

We will always remember you,
Just know you're in our hearts.
We will always care for you,
We will never be apart.