Jamie Mckenzie Lee

Sometimes I cut myself
Just to feel the pain
Then I hide my scars
Because of all the shame
The pain is awful
I do it just to feel
Sometimes I have to make sure
Everything's still real
My life has been bad
I do it to forget
I cut my arms
Then I cry as I sit
Alone in my room
Hoping for someone
To save me from this
So I can finally say I've won
I want to quit this habit
But I still reach for the blade
I cry out in pain
My arm turns that familiar red shade
I get that adrenalin rush
The blood runs over my hand
I hear someone coming
So I attempt to stand
My legs feel weak
And I fall to the ground
I've done it again
I don't hear another sound...
I wake up two days later
In a hospital bed
I feel like hell
There's a pounding in my head
First time in seven months
I haven't been high
I breathe in deeply
And let out a sigh
Withdrawals hurt like a bitch
But it feels good
It's going to be hard
But I know I should
I'm not only hurting myself
I'm hurting others too
I have to stop this
I need to become someone new

A silly girl
Loved a stupid boy
He was her everything
She was just his toy
He played with her emotions
Put mixed feelings in her head
For that stupid boy
A million tears that girl had shed
His friends would laugh
In his fun they would share
They knew he was a player
While she thought they were the perfect pair
Then came that horror
She was two weeks late
So she took the test
Could this possibly be fate?
She told that boy
The news she had found out
That was when she discovered
What he was all about
He showed his true colors
And crushed her pride
Left her all alone
For someone he had on the side
Born to her
Was a perfect son
This war she was fighting
The new mother had won
The prize was hers
To keep for a lifetime
A baby boy
Born to shine