Angela Fernatt

I keep looking for comfort from you
I sit and wonder if your love is true
You see me crying
Inside you have to know I'm dying
Don't you see these tears
Don't you see the hurt from so many years
The little girl who was hurt so bad
Is now 30 years old and utterly sad
No one to listen or even to talk to
Recalling memories that hurt me through and through
The things you ask of me
It triggers a memory
Memories I'd rather forget
Memories embedded in my mind, completely set
The hurt, the pain and anger won't go away
I wonder who "loves me" and will turn their back today
I can't explain how I feel inside
Feelings of abandonment rush in like the tide
Ghosts haunt me no matter where I go
I do love you still, that you should know
I wish you could understand
I would be there holding your hand
I would take away all your pain
So in the end, you'd have a life to gain
But for me, darkness is all I see
No happiness for this little girl is to be
The adult lives her life
Taking on happiness, sorrow, and strife
I hope someday you'll understand
Someday I hope you'll be here to comfort me and hold my hand
Until that day, all I feel is punishment
Along with those never-ending feelings of abandonment

Sleepin' in your arms
Feelin' safe from harm
Impatiently I wait for the day
That I don't have to see you go away
Years have come and gone
Yet our love has held on strong
The time has come
For us to finally be one
You are my true lover and best friend,
My soul mate and companion to the end
I hope to keep you happy
Never getting too serious or sappy
Your eyes that sparkle and shine,
That excites me knowing your love is mine
We both have hurt and cried
The love for each other never died
I promise with my heart to be true
Keeping my love, only giving it to you
From today forward, I promise this . . .
Our vows, our life as one, will be
Forever sealed with a kiss.

The days seem longer
My love grows stronger
The distance between you and I
The miles make me want to die
We screwed up in the beginning
I never wanted there to be an ending
Another marriage, another divorce
That was my thinking, of course
You finally opened your heart
You decided we should never be apart
A fresh start at a brand new life
One with less crying and strife
A new love has started to grow
Every day love is what you show
With you standing by my side
I'm finally ready for life's little ride
So take me baby, I'm all yours
Now, I sit here and count the hours
Longing to be in your arms
Smiling at the thought of your charm
Butterflies in my belly
Like a little girl, I feel silly.