I HATE being patient, but I've got more of it than anyone else I know.
I HATE having to put myself aside for something else,
but I care enough to do it.
I find myself filled with a lot of that lately...this...hate...
It sounds so weird to say it out loud...hate....It doesn't have a nice feeling.
I HATE-
It's just not me.
It's not how I want to be.
It doesn't sound right coming out of my mouth.
It doesn't sound right swirling through my head.
Why is it that I find myself constantly forcing that word out of my head?
I hate that...
there it is again,
lately it creeps up on me.
I know what causes it. I'm tired.
I'm tired of being patient and putting myself second,
second for you.
I hate you,
I don't hate you.
I hate the power you seem to have over me.
I hate that I can't hate you.
I feel helpless,
The words echo through my head.
They echo through the room.
The room
This room.
I hate this room.
The room you so kindly took the time to build for me.
The room in my head,
once my sanctuary - now my enemy.
I hate this room.
I'm forced to sit in this damp windowless room.
There is no way out. Not yet, anyway.
I have to wait.
wait - and be patient,
wait...
for you.
Poem About Hate
When I was little my parents got divorced. Then from there my brother and sister began to fight with each other. Then with my dad, too. I hated it. What they did. Then my brother died. He was...
Without You
Published by Family Friend Poems October 2009 with permission of the Author.
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