I used to stand all alone with no where to go
The days seemed so long and so cold
My friends had all left me
There was nothing they could do
I had fallen under the curse
Of an abusive love
A long time passed,
I had no friends.
I hated myself and I thought it was the end.
I made my way to the drawer
where the knives were all kept,
As I slit through my skin,
I simply wept.
I couldn't pull myself to cut any deeper than I had
It already hurt really bad.
As time passed the rumors at school only grew
I was the girl with no future
I didn't know what to do.
Should I continue to live this way, hiding the pain
or should I end it now.
I was going insane
I was home alone with a rope,
Put it around my neck.
I couldn't breathe
I was an emotional wreck
I saved myself in time
I knew I had made the wrong choice.
I should never hurt myself over one silly boy.
It was time to have people hear my voice.
I reached out for help and remembered I was never alone
God had always been there with me,
I should have known
I've grown off my experiences
and learned from my mistakes.
Don't hurt yourself or others
Do whatever it takes.
I'm loving my life,
The pain is all gone
If you think you are hopeless.
Take it from me, you are wrong.
I fell the same way, the boy I loved left me for someone who was no better so I thought I was better off dead.
Who I Once Was
Published by Family Friend Poems October 2012 with permission of the Author.
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