In desperation I search, trying to find myself, I look.
I search and search, for my heart is lost, I search.
Too scared to run, too scared to move.
Paralyzed by pain and fear, I search.
I fight to live as I stager at the pain.
I sit beside me staring at what I see.
I shake my head at what I made me.
I fight to not listen at the pain I created.
The pain I will always see.
As I twitch in emptiness my eyes begin to see.
The more they find, the more it hurts.
They look at me as a piece of meat.
Trembling legs, week arms, and scars from defeat.
I fight myself because of what I see.
It's me I'm looking at and me that won't succeed.
I stare and look, searching for answers, for that I concede.
I shred myself and my sole with my eyes.
They are too strong for me, for that I am paralyzed.
I see my hands as the grasper of pain.
They are the retriever of all I have received from me.
As my hands fight back, I see
I am only what I want to be, and I still have a chance to defeat me.
We Can Change
Dedicated to every child out there that has been left out by their father. No matter what your dad may do no matter how bad it hurts, remember that there is such thing as karma, and karma...
Hands
Published by Family Friend Poems May 2008 with permission of the Author.
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