I have a pain so deep you'll never see
I locked it away and hid the key.
If I ever really could share it
You wouldn't look at me the same, I swear it.
I've seen things I shouldn't have to see
But the only one who ever knew was me.
I faked a smile every day
For I couldn't stand for you to see me this way
I buried my emotions deep inside my soul
It's this hate I have that keeps me whole
If I ever truly showed you what's inside
I'd run away fast and quickly hide
No matter where I go these feelings stay inside
All I want to do is close my eyes
It's like an eternal torture that never dies
These voices fill my head
Telling me I'm way better off dead
This pain of living hurts my heart
Should I have ended it from the start?
It's like when I get home I take off a mask
Faking happiness is nearly an impossible task
But somehow I manage to get by
Going through every day about to cry
One day maybe it'll be okay
But of course that day is not today.
How much blood can I shed
Before I'm lying on the floor dead?
Will this pain ever go away?
Maybe tomorrow but not today.
Hi, I am 13 too, but I will be 14 soon. I have told my family about my depression 6 months ago. I cut myself sometimes but only on my thigh so no one sees. I know how it feels to be alone,...
This Feeling Of Depression
Published by Family Friend Poems December 2011 with permission of the Author.
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Hello, I am a 12-year-old boy who suffers from the same thing. As much as I am all right with things like name calling, I am not all right about physical contact to a innocent person, but life can't always go your way, and unfortunately that happens to me daily with friends that normally would be nice to me but at the end of the day aren't. When I found this poem, it gave me the courage to stand up for myself and stop it all