Every night before you dream his footsteps come your way
Close your eyes tight, sink down and he might go away
The door creeks open and you hold your breath
The things he is about to do is worse than death
He sits in the corner, gets a cigarette and lights one up
Takes a drink from his glass as the ice clinks in his cup
He whispers, "I know your awake and I don't have much time"
Your heart stops beating because he's about to commit a crime
His hands slips under your covers ready to cause pain
This is all part of daddy's sick little game
Make a sound and it will be your last
You silently pray for the pain to pass
Once he is done the pain goes away
But forever will the memory of daddy's game stay
You start to feel trapped with no one to tell
You think this is the closest thing to living in hell
You don't want him to get satisfaction out of his game
So then you decide to make your own pain
You feel so much better when it is you making you hurt
Instead of your dad who was supposed to protect you since birth
As you grow up the memories will remain
And you will never forget playing daddy's little game
I cry tears everyday, I'm now beginning to think that I'm a survivor not a victim!! I'm 34 with a dark past and now I think I'm bashing down the wall that surrounds me that I built!! So I can...
Make My Own Pain, Daddy's Game
Published by Family Friend Poems May 2011 with permission of the Author.