I Want To

I want to write about how you make me feel,
How every time I see your face I know that you're real.
I can't describe the feeling you always raise in me.
I can't describe this wash of happiness that you seem to bring,
But I want to write about it; I want to write about you.

I want to write about that day we shared,
How every time you would laugh it would linger in the air.
I can't describe the loving look in your eyes.
I can't describe the reason why you won't say, "Goodbye."
But I want to write about it; I want to write about you.

I want to write about all our memories, all our stories, and adventures,
How we conquered them together,
But I can't describe the paths we took.
I can't describe the sense of security I felt in that one look.
But I want to; I want to write about you.

I want to write about us,
How everything felt was true love, not lust,
But I can't describe anything without you.
I can't describe all our hopes and dreams,
How everything that was so perfect left in a fleet of screams.

I want to write,
But I can't explain how our plans got so disarrayed,
How God just had to take you away.
I can't describe this sudden feeling I have to be by your side,
How even through death I have to hide all that I feel inside.

I want to write, but I forget how to describe what is meant.
I want to write about you, but I can't.
I can't describe the feeling of lost, the feeling of what it all cost
Or of the silent screams, the lovely dreams with just you and me,
But I want to.