A Letter For My Son

Timothy,

I remember taking you to kindergarten on the first day of school. We walked into the classroom and you just stood there, shy at first but then the teacher came over and introduced you to the others kids and you went off to play. I watched you for a few minutes to see how you would do and then you came up to me and said "Momma, you can leave now" and I just laughed and said "OK". I hugged you and said "I love you and that I'll be back soon to get you" and you said "OK, I love you too" and then went back to playing. I hated to leave you there but I knew you had to go. I really thought you would be crying like I seen some of the other kids doing, but you didn't. I was the one crying. I thought about you the whole time you were gone, just wondering what you were doing. When I came to get you, you were so excited and before you got in the car you were telling me all about your day. Your eyes were so bright and you were just filled with so much information, I swear you didn't stop talking until we got back into the house.

I can't believe that soon I will be standing there watching you walk across a stage to be handed your high school diploma. You've worked so hard to get to this point. I'm proud of you. You began this life as a beautiful baby boy but grew up to be a handsome young man. Today is your day to shine. You'll be nervous but I hope not scared, you've done your part and soon will be standing up for our country. I don't know how to tell or show you how proud I am of you. My heart hurts to know that you will be leaving soon for the military, but I know this is what you want and that you will be alright. I will be worried about you and I'll miss being able to call you and tell you I love you every day but you know how much I love you and I can never say it enough. I'm glad that we have the mother & son relationship that is very rare and far between, and that you know you can trust me and talk to me about anything.

I'm not the perfect the mother, I've made my mistakes and I know those mistakes have hurt you and I'm so sorry and I hope you can forgive me for those. But I know one thing that I don't regret is having you when I did, I'm honored to be the one who saw your first step, hear your first words, there's so many things that I've watched you do that was just a surprise to me.

I know that you will go far in this life, you deserve the best this world can give you and I know that you will get it. Even though today is the day I have to let you go to discover the world on your own, please know that I'll be with you no matter where you go and that I'll be there anytime and anywhere you may need me. You are my heart, my soul, my life, and my world. I love you my son very much and thank you for the best 18 years of my life.

I Love You,
Moma