Shianne

For every time that I broke down
There was a fake smile to cover the frown
I hid behind lies when things got tough
Forced myself to think it was enough
My tears were masked by the rain
Unseen by all, alone with my pain
Each night was a cover to hide my cries
To keep from showing all these lies
If I could go back, I'd change it all
Stop myself from starting to fall
Consumed by hatred, I lost all sight
I knew what was wrong but it felt so right
I couldn't live without the pain
Or the anger pulsing through my vein
Each truth a lie I learned to hold
While watching each one start to unfold
If I could go back, all that would change
These diamond lies wouldn't seem so strange
I'd undo my lies and make them true
Hold on tightly to all that I do
Forget the bad, and think of only each day
And what's to come, without dismay
I'd forget that I cried those tears
Remember only every one of my fears
I'd try to be everything that I lost
Before I fell, remember the cost
Hope for the best, and try to be
All that died when I lost me
I'd turn back time to redo all this
And relive the life I almost missed
Only if I could turn it back
I'd find everything that I started to lack
No longer would fake smiles appear
They'd be true with nothing to fear
It'd be as though it was a dream
That came one night to make it seem
As though this was really true
But now there's only one thing I must do
Go back in time and erase this pain
Wash it away on rivers of rain
All this could happen if I went back
And once again in my life, I'd be on the right track.

A wish upon a bed of lies
A hope that fell like tears from your eyes
Shattered dreams cast aside
Forgotten memories of how you tried
Screams that pierce the cool night air
Relive these memories, you they dare
Hatred pulses from your veins
Anger no longer shackled in chains
Silence greets you on this night
Cries and sobs as hatred meets
Turned on you, pointed the blame
Without a thought, without a shred of shame
The tears shine bright, scarlet red
Yet not one falls, left unshed
The dark consumes your very soul
Left behind, you play a new role
A dreamer of shadows, a seer of tales,
A bearer of lies, behind you they trail
One touch shows what is to be
A curse granted for all eternity
Broken hopes upon the ground
Guilt drenched thoughts the only sound
Cast away, these diamond lies
Seen only by the dreaming eyes
Shattered glass shows the way
To darker dreams stored away
A nightmare begins to unfold its wings
Voices of hatred all it brings
A lie turned back from a dream
A reaper of souls, it may seem
One word will tell of your fate
And one kiss shows it came too late.

Each time you try it only fails
Weaving lies from older tales
You leave the truth far behind
Walking on as you find

Each was a dream you wished was true
Imagining irises of the deepest blue
The sweet smelling roses with their scent
Of lilacs in summer, whole world was bent

Tilting away as everything turns red
Each scream is another tear unshed
Leaving a gap, a hole not filled
Day after day each one is stilled

Lost forever in a void of dreams
That saved you from the haunting screams
The voices filled with tears and hate
Guilt free once, now it's too late

Try to turn back, but instead you stay
Reliving these memories each passing day
Dreams upon hate, tears upon pain
Lies sharp as diamonds, falling like rain

Weaving this world to hide the best
Awake each night, only death brings rest
Only silence brings the dreams you crave
And yet instead still it can't save

You from the worst, of what's to be
For lies are truth, and dreams insanity.