Kristen

A happy smile, contagious to all,
With a heart of gold that never falls.
As my role model, you set the bar high,
But you've taught me all I can do is try.
As my friend, you support me,
Helping me achieve goals I never imagined I could reach.
As my teacher, you motivate me
To become the best I can possibly be.
You're always there to help others,
Putting yourself second and acting like a mother.
You're a very admired teacher
Who's caring, kind, and smart.
Whether I like it or not,
You're always here for me
And with my best intentions in your heart.
I always know you'll have my back.
The way you love to help others learn
Is something for which I will always yearn,
And one day when I'm a teacher too,
I will strive to be just like you.

I'm tired.
Tired of the constancy,
the constancy of judgment.
Tired of hiding,
hiding who I really am.
Tired of trying to stay strong.

I'm tired.
Tired of pretending,
pretending to be happy when all I want to do is cry.
Tired of not being able to let go,
let go of all the pain and emotions that consume me.
Tired of feeling worthless.

I'm tired.
Tired of being put down,
put down by the people I felt closest to.
Tired of dreaming,
dreaming of a life I will never have.
Tired of not being good enough.

I'm tired.
Tired of remembering,
remembering how I used to be so happy.
Tired of the blame,
the blame I put on myself daily.
Tired of the anger.

I'm tired.
Tired of crying,
crying in the shower so nobody can hear.
Tired of the fear,
the fear of being judged, hurt, and alone.
Tired of failing.

I'm tired.
Tired of holding on when all I want to do is give up.
Tired of being tired.
Tired of being me.