Gina Petersen

I loved you,
But you broke my heart.
I should have known
That was your goal from the start.

You told me you loved me,
And you seemed upset
When I didn't say it back,
And that's my biggest regret.

You talked of the future
And put it in my head
That you wanted me for longer,
But you dropped me instead.

I would do anything for you,
But you couldn't even wait.
I wanted you in my life;
I knew this on our first date.

I love you still,
But it doesn't matter,
For the heart I gave you,
You have shattered.

So I am left broken
And picking up the pieces,
While you are smiling
And your care decreases.

You knew I was fragile,
Even though I acted tough.
You told me not to pretend,
That you could see past my bluff.

I still love you,
And I don't think I will ever stop.
Just know if you need me,
Your heart I will never drop.

I'm tired of pretending
Everything is okay,
That it does not pain me
When I hear your name.

Tired of pretending
I'm not dying inside
Every time I see the smile
That reaches your eyes.

Tired of pretending
It does not hurt
Now that I know
I will never be yours.

Tired of pretending
I do not care
That you will never again
Run your fingers through my hair

But I pretend
I don't know your name,
Just to keep
From going insane.

I pretend
You mean nothing to me,
In hopes that
I can finally breathe.

I pretend
That I do not care
When I see
You standing there.

The reason I try to pretend,
Rather than hurt instead,
Is with the hope you will
Actually get out of my head.