Angie

There she sits before her mirror,
Primping in excitement, her face flushed.
Today is her day; she will never know
How much I hurt, how scared I am
Of the void she will leave behind.

Will she forget me? I'll be replaced
By someone new, someone who makes her heart
Dance in her chest, a drumbeat.
Will he, can he protect her as I've done?
I have no choice but to trust...

I seethe with an almost-rage,
An unfounded, illogical jealousy, an anger
For what he is taking from me.
I am selfish. She is my joy, my life
I would die for her.

Today I will. A thousand times.

Then she turns to look at me.
In her beautiful face I see worry.
For me? She sees the unspilled tears
She knows. Of course, she knows.
She comes to me.

And with the smallest kiss, the subtle smile
All is well. She is still mine.
She will always be mine
In a different and wonderful way.
She is a part of me.

She will move on, she will give others joy,
And I am comforted knowing her goodness
Will be shared by everyone she touches,
And I am okay and proud, and I take her hand
To give her to her love, her new life.

I swell with almost unbearable pride
To have created something so perfect!
She was never mine to keep, this supreme being
Perfect to me. Shining, golden, priceless...
My heirloom of love.

And there he goes, that handsome, kind man
With his new bride, my daughter, my soul.
Does he know what has been passed to him?
He could not know, not yet,
But time will show him; he will realize.

Someday it will be his turn.
He will have to pass her essence on,
In his daughter, my granddaughter,
Our heirloom of love.
Will he weep? With loss, with anger?

Will he sit alone in his daughter's room
Filled with love and happiness...sadness?
No, content. A deep breath will help him stand
As I do now, and I walk with trembling lips
And chin held high. I leave this room.

I close the door.

On a cold and dreary morning
As I sit upon my bed
While I stare at your picture
Thoughts of you go through my head

Sometimes when you don't know it
You douse my feelings with cold rain
And though you may not realize it
You put me through such pain

I know that I should turn away
Just go and not look back
This being lonely but not alone
Is something I can't hack

But something keeps me holding on
Is this the best I'll find?
I can't imagine moving forward
And leaving you behind

You know you can't deny it
Yes, I know you love me too
I pray the day will never come
When you say that we're through

I've never felt this way before
And never will again
My heart will always be yours
Even after our time comes to an end

I hope you don't forget these words
Until the day you die
And when that day comes I will be
Behind you with a sigh

I love you baby, don't forget
These feelings that I write
'Cuz if I said I'd die for you
Believe me, I just might.