Value Of Love

• by Roxxan Amar
• 7 years ago

I fell in love with a man two years ago. After a courtship of 3 months I found out that he was marrying someone else. I was depressed, perplexed, and wondered why he had to do that to me, but after 1 month of marriage he came back to me. I didn’t know his mission claiming and confessing love to me. It was hell. I was already going through a lot. What now is this? I couldn't handle myself at all. My love was still intact and it was so hard to resist him at all. But my heart has not yet decided should I take him back or what should I do?

• by Mandy Ndlovu
• 10 years ago

I had it all figured out, the future was right in my hands and it seemed like the world had no escape too. I was in love with a man I called my future yet he was in love with another woman he called his future. Often times in church I was told I was someone's missing rib yet God left it in my powers to figure out who that person was. I met a few and never felt like they were the ones until I met this particular one. My world changed and I would do anything for him and I mean anything you could ever imagine. He was handsome and he still is. Yet inside he was the ugliest man any woman could ever dream of. Some come into your life to teach you a lesson and leave you in one piece yet he came to take everything I ever had, everything I stood for and above all he left me in pieces that are a puzzle no man can ever solve. I gave him my energy and he never brought it back, I gave him my heart and he drove a knife through it. He was my eye sight yet today like a blind woman I stand still with no one to pull me through the darkest part of my path. The breath I took was nothing better than the air he breathed out yet I was happy because I loved him. The day he slipped through my fingers I felt my soul freeze into the hardest ice that has no melting point, my heart bled and I wondered if ever there was a difference between death and divorce. I wasn't married but I called him my husband for that is what he represented. I looked back and saw all the lies, peace was completely drawn out of me and I became an angry woman. The laugh I laughed yesterday has suddenly turned into tears of wilderness for I still do not understand what happened. We were the best couple that ever walked around and to our friends and family our love was a fairy tale. I stand today with unanswered questions of unbelief and denial. Did we just break up or I am having a long continuous nightmare? Did you just cheat on me or the devil is playing tricks with my mind?? I loved you with everything I ever had, I loved you with every prayer I ever prayed even God knew my prayer ended with "God guide him" when other people's prayers ended with an AMEN. Today my heart is so torn apart yet I cannot figure out how things went wrong. I lowered my standards just to accommodate you but I never knew the same wings I gave to you will make you fly so high that you will never remember where they came from. I created a ladder for you and I never knew you would look on the same ladder that took you up and spit on it. I covered your nakedness with every piece of clothing I had, for you were that special to me yet today the same clothing is the one you are using to strangle my throat. I spoke on your behalf when you ran short of words yet today you have taken every word out of my mouth and left me speechless. If anyone has never experienced the pain of loving and never being loved back then you have never been in pain. If I said I will ever love again then I will be lying because unless God tells me how things went wrong I will remain single till my grave.

• by Deb
• 10 years ago

Married for 28 years, now 2 young adult men. I forgave bouts of infidelity in the early years, experienced 2 occasions of physical abuse and ongoing verbal abuse. Amongst those times I shared exquisite moments, from a man who was my childhood sweetheart, the only one. We finally separated, the verbal abuse and disconnect too great. He has moved in 6 months later with a woman and her family. She holds a senior role in our family business for 15 years. I now look back over everything I have gone through and believed in. Now he has not only shattered our family but also taken away the memories of what I thought we had. I now have nothing to believe in, to look back on and am now fighting to get a divorce settlement while everything I believed in crumbles around me. Life's lessons are hard, I know we need them to grow. Each day is a struggle to get through, I can only hope that like other people there will be some happiness coming for me.

• by Mary
• 11 years ago

I been married for about five in a half year I been cheated on I think for most of my marriage my husband is also addicted to porn. I have separated from him on and of for years. I need some help. I want to find a way to completely leave him I believe in god and marriage but at this point in my life I've been through enough. I need to find away to get my life back and self worth I've been belittled, and I felt like I was never good enough it's sad how a man manipulates his wife and make them feel at fault for what they do on the contrary we as women should stand for what we know is right and that's not letting anyone take away our voice and happiness.

• by Khushboo, India
• 12 years ago

I loved him in a every possible way I could..
It wasn't love at first site. But when he kissed me first time, he became my world.. He was everything to me. It's been 6 years now.. In those 6 years he cheated on me twice and lied many times. He says he loves me but I know he's changed..
I'm shattered.. I'm gonna leave him . Don't want be fool.. But in my core I want him to call me, message me..
Love is blind...

• by Mike Wright
• 12 years ago

I gave my very best to her for all those years we was together having fun and going places before and after we was married, then later on God gave us two great sons. We was always so happy and still went places and took our sons everywhere we vacationed, we had true love I thought no one else could ever have had, but she started talking to other guys on the internet, and then it happened after 29 years she wanted a divorce it has now been 4 years and I still love her, but it is now all over. I've done all I could to try to save our marriage and our family life I always wanted, but she wanted this guy and now I am no longer wanted, except for my two sons.

• by Shaila
• 12 years ago

I am married to a man for almost forty years. I discovered last year that he has been cheating me for almost a year. He has been seeing a much younger woman and having a relationship with her. I am deeply hurt. He says he never loved her. I don't believe it.

• by S.Harris
• 13 years ago

I fell in love with a married man 20 years ago, it was a on and off relationship for many years. We have lived together for 2 years now in another state! I cry from the inner pain every day! I love him more than I love myself, more than I ever knew was possible! It's so painful, the fear of the possibility of having to let him go one day consumes me, overwhelms me! What can you do? Love is painful!

• by Pola, Africa
• 13 years ago

I often ask myself why men fall victim of infidelity. Then I remember that women too are unfaithful. What beats me is I gave him everything, yet he had to search and go with a virgin. Wasting five years of my life is sad, but am glad I have a child to raise and live for, trying to forget him. Love is so blind. My heart goes out to everyone who has been cheated on. We are worth more than we're cut out for than our partners think. Love hurts, it should not take away your ability to love again. Moving on is key to healing our wounds...

• by nmarques
• 15 years ago

It is in trust that we always find betrayal. I can understand much of what you describe, but it's better to love once and suffer from it, then to never love at all.
I've turned my back on mostly all of my friends, because she didn't liked them... I've swapped my awesome job because I've had not much time to share with her... I've engaged those who harmed her and was her shield for 3 years and her sword... I've gave myself to her in all the ways you can imagine, and then some... In the end, I was sent away with a wicked grin and it did troubled me for quite sometime.
Today, I've evolved to a better person, and would still live it all again, because despite of all the pain and anger, I've became a better person in the end... I've lost nearly everything, so that I forced into a new restart... And how good does it feel. Now fighting for my own!

• by Saja
• 16 years ago

My friend and I are going through the same infidelity that our spouses have committed. It's going on four months for me and over a year for her. I am desperately and determined to get over the abandonment my ex has caused me and our boys. Friends, and relatives and prayers are my greatest support whereas she is receiving counseling. She chose to take her spouse back for fear of being alone and I see the pain in her eyes as if it happened to her yesterday. This beautiful poem tells it all for her.