Last Love

• by Jenna
• 7 years ago

I know how it feels! I used to have to watch my sister stab herself! All you can really do is pray!

• by Mattison L
• 8 years ago

I see how she felt. I was a victim of bullying. They made me feel worthless and I couldn't speak for myself. They called me cruel names, and I tried to numb the pain, it was just so hard. I wanted to die, but I realized, what would happen after? Would people care? Would I be missed? I started talking to my closest friend about it, and he saved my life. It's not a bad life, just a bad week.

• by Anieca Johnson, British Columbia
• 9 years ago

Did you know that when you call me all those names, I go home and put a shot gun to my head, saying good bye, but instead, I still live with all the pain.

• by Ashleigh Leeann Lierman, Nebraska
• 9 years ago

My Adopted Father was raping me for 3 years before I tried telling anyone. When I finally did tell, his wife, (my Adopted Mother), my biological brother and sister, and my adopted siblings, didn't believe what I was accusing the man that had always been there for them, was capable of rape. I was shunned by them. I couldn't take being alone. So I tried to commit Suicide 5 times, each and every time it failed, either because I was caught or because "chickened" out. But now I know why it didn't work. Because God didn't want it to. He wasn't ready to take me home. I'm so glad I have Him in my life. I realize now that I was never really alone.

• by Luz Martinez
• 10 years ago

It made me cry because it really touched me. I have tried to commit suicide for the last 4 years. It's just hard to take life anymore. Well I loved the poem it was great.

• by Lusaka Zambia
• 10 years ago

I felt alone neglected like all the world could do for me was hurt me. I was a victim of bullying I can still hear their piercing words. All I gave the world was a smile because bullying has really made me more confident about myself because if somebody does not have what you got they try by all means. To make you feel worthless. Jealousy is their forename do not fall for their claws..

• by Marsha, St Augustine
• 11 years ago

I'm so very sorry to hear about your loss. This poem was very touching and brought tears to my eyes.
I've thought about suicide in the past when things just got really bad. But I think of my family and think of all the pain, I'd put them through.
It's good that you're able to try and hold yourself up. I know it's very hard on you. Just try to keep your head up and look forward. I wish you the best, Hun!

• by Patty, Connecticut
• 12 years ago

My sister finally drank herself to death on July 23, 2012.
She was 53 years old. I watched her going downhill through the years, and could do nothing to change it. It seemed that after my dad died in 2003, and my mom in 2011, she lost the will to live.
She never married and was almost childlike. Our family home was sold and she moved into public housing where her drinking worsened.
She was evicted from there, and moved into a drug house where liquor and drugs flowed freely......
I feel guilty for not being there for her, but I could not. I could not even reach her for the last six months. Her mind was not working.
She refused to talk to me at the end. This was troubling because she called me every morning.
The people who she hung around with were the types we see on TV in drug infested areas.
The mourning that I am going through has been very difficult.
I have her ashes here, and am not sure where I will place them.
I had to get her out of that area, and have her body sent here.
She was pretty much shunned by people and family in our home town.
I never stopped loving her, no matter what.

• by Emily Allen, Memphis Tennessee
• 12 years ago

I have tried to kill myself several times and I am only 16 and I started cutting at the age of 9 and still struggle with it today. I grew up being abused by my father and now that he is out of the house and lives over 300 miles away from me. We talk on the phone and are starting to build a relationship but it upsets me because I never get to see him anymore.

• by Alexis
• 12 years ago

OMG, this reminds me of a few days ago.... I was thinking about killing myself when my bf dumped me. I changed my mind because of my family and friends and the rest of the life I have to life why would a 14 year old girl kill herself over a break up??? I would but I did the right thing and didn't.

• by Karla Maldonado, Ohio
• 13 years ago

I'm sorry to see you lost your sister but I know your pain I lost my brother on 12-31-10 and he was only 25 years old. He came to my house and had a smile on his face but so much pain inside we talked we smiled for the last time. He had his gun on him that day he went to the living room and showed it to my mom and dad. He thought he took everything out but he was wrong there was one bullet left and he didn't know and he put it to his head and pulled it and fell to the floor I couldn't believe what just had happened and I try to stay strong but to know that other people have lost a family member and are staying strong helps me and I know we all hurt inside but one day we will see them again. God bless every one and may God heal all our pain...

• by Melissa
• 13 years ago

That was very touching and I know how you feel because when I was seven I found my great grandad hanging from his living room ceiling. It scarred me for life and I've been in therapy for 8 years and at times you wish you could have done something to stop them but it's already too late.

• by Sara
• 14 years ago

Nicole, that's so sad. I'm so sorry. I feel your pain. my Grandpa killed himself back when I still lived in Washington. I remember when my grandma called us.... I just remember to stay strong and live my life how he would want me too, and never give up. But don't feel guilty, like Chris said, its no one fault but there own. THEY choose there life...all we can do is pray for them.

• by Nicole
• 14 years ago

I know how you feel..my dad was born in 1959 Sept. 4 and died on 2004 Feb. 15 by committing suicide and it still hunts me down but as Chris said there is no way you can stop something like this my dad had tried to commit suicide even before I was born and it makes you think many things...I felt guilt because I was the last person he talked to and said goodbye and gave me a last kiss and I always think what if I had told him how much I care for him would he had stayed?...idk its just how life is I guess...

• by Shanece
• 15 years ago

OMG, having lost someone because of suicide is the hardest loss because you feel like you're the one to blame. It must be really hard to lose a sister especially when you were so close. This poem was really touching and it left me in tears I hope that you get through your bereavement and don't feel any guilt. You didn't cause it

• by chris green
• 15 years ago

I know exactly how you feel. my sister was born 1988 July 14 and died 2005 June 27 she was going to her senior year and I was going to be a freshman at highschool. I told her the night before in a note that I loved her. The next day I woke up mom was crying and the door was cracked open there was nothing I could do. there was nothing you could do either she was going to commit suicide whether you said it or not either then or later. I loved my sis so much she was so creative and talented seemed like the opposite of me except she could never feel happy.