Shadow Of A Silhouette

• by Alesha Hansen, Midwest
• 2 years ago

I was raped by my ex- boyfriend for the first time about a month into our relationship. We were in room 227 at the Days Inn. After he was finished, I was still lying there, not sure what to do next. I noticed my ex was sitting on the floor crying crocodile tears. I said what are you crying for? He said I'm going to have to go to the police and tell them I raped my girlfriend. Do you know what I did? Did I agree and make him call the cops? Nope. Did I kick his teeth in for being so selfish and unaware of what he had done? Nope. I went over to him and said, "You dont have to do that. Just forget about it." I comforted him and that was the start of a very intense trauma bond that would hold me as his hostage for four years. I wish I would have stood up, walked calmly to him, and kicked his teeth down his throat.

• by Jae Is Bae, Boston
• 4 years ago

My boyfriend constantly raped me for 4 years, and I never thought it was wrong. I figured that this is what I have to do if I wanted to date him, but now I know that that's not true. What he did was wrong and this poem really helped me.

• by Amy
• 9 years ago

When I was four my cousin molested me. That started my life of hell. It happened ten other times. Me being abused, beat, tortured, and raped. The last time it happened was two weeks ago.

It's years later from the first time it happened, it eats at me, and kills me, I suffer from PTSD, depression, and rape trauma syndrome. I have nightmares about every time it happened. Almost nightly. It tears me apart from limb to limb, I can't trust people and I hurt so bad , the pain is unbearable. I was four when I lost my pride, dignity, and innocence. Now at 15 I'm a hallowed out shell.

• by Kassie, SC
• 11 years ago

You're not weak for enduring rape. You're a group of the strongest people to still be able to laugh and stand tall. Don't give up because of your memories but forgive and don't let anyone else push you down.

• by Lyric
• 12 years ago

I hated my life when I was I was 16 I am 17 now I was raped 5 times by the same person a person who I thought loved me but he was a monster. The last time he did it to me was on my 17th birthday about 3 months ago my ex will pay for this. He is younger then me but bigger then me. I feel your pain just know you will be strong and you have people who would talk to you any day if you need help.

• by Fozmin, Munich Germany
• 12 years ago

the first time it happened I was 3 and a half, the second time I was 12, the third time I was 18 and then I was 27, I still am 27.

the pain is tearing my body, my mind and my soul into pieces, tried to kill myself 3 times and on all occasions the doctors saved me, why I don't know, death must be more peaceful then this life.

I'm planning to run away to a country where no one knows me and I hope that when I start my new life I am able to play a different role in the world and forget who I am

• by Amanda, Al.
• 12 years ago

I was raped at 3 then again at 13 and until I was 15. It sucked real bad and I haven't really gotten through all the pain. I have none to talk to. I was admitted to a hospital and the counselor there ended up telling the staff who in turn told the kids. I was crushed. I still don't talk about it. But one thing I learned is that if I want to live my life without the constant feel of pain I needed to forgive the one's who hurt me and work through it apparently alone. I still have nightmares but I know that at least I can wake up every morning and be blessed to have made it through it. A lot of people think that when someone has been raped they are victims... well you're not you are a survivor. Never think of yourself as anything less.

• by Amber C, Oklahoma
• 12 years ago

Well I was about 8 1/2 when my step dad and his best friend raped me. I was home sick from school and my mom was at work and his best friend had come over. I was in my room and they had both come in and said we are going to play this game and you have to play. I said I don't feel good I don't want to play and they said that I had to. Well they both sat beside me on my bed and my step dad grabbed my arm and said touch my penis I said no and then he forced me to, well the other guy started grabbing my breast then I let out a scream and my step dad slapped me and then they forced me down on the bed holding me down I fought against them. Well they took off my shirt then my pants then took turns raping me for a couple of hours. A couple of years went by, didn't tell anyone. Well my sister had come forward and said that he was doing stuff to them and come to find out that he had also done the same thing to both of my sisters who are older than me but they said something about it and now he is in prison.

• by Liliahna
• 12 years ago

I was 9 when I was raped by my dad. It was the worst day of my life and I didn't even really know what to do. He threatened me that he'd kill me and my family if I told. and my mum and him where together for another 3 years. I became majorly depressed and attempted suicide. And I still cut. I'm 13 and it haunts me daily. I have a councilor and I now have major trust issues. All my 'friends' call me a slut and my last boyfriend tried to rape me again. Yes, my life is s*it.

• by Savannah
• 13 years ago

I know what rape is like. I was 12 when I had my virginity stolen from me. It's the core cause of my depression. It's why I cut. I never talked about it. It drove me to be so depressed I ended up in the mental hospital. I finally told someone two years later. No one truely understands the pain of rape and the hurt it causes until it happens to them. They can say they understand but it's all bull shi*. That's all I have to say..