It Doesn't End Until It Ends Me

As the nights become longer, my strength starts to weaken.
My stomach becomes hungrier and I soon start to break.
The sky seems like home, it's where I'm soon destined to be.
I am no longer strong, I can no longer fight.
I pass by the mirror, and there stands a girl.
No she is not me, I do not know who she is to be.

My wrist are now scarred, so is my heart.
My mind is now full of horrible thoughts.
I cannot escape, I cannot fight.
This dark cloud has taken over me.
I try to smile but I do not mean it.

The nights are hard but the mornings are harder.
Waking up to be someone I'm not.
I cannot feel, I cannot think.
I am now numb. I am now weak.
I have been fighting for way to long.
Things have gotten worse.
And this war is now harder to fight.

I was suppose to be happy, I was suppose to be free.
But along the way to my destiny something took over me.
It was unexpected, I was not prepared.
Never did I think I could feel like this way.
It's a dark cold world, that I am now living in.
I fight for my life, to be back how it used to be.

I can no longer remember who I was before.
Happiness, was once me but Now it no longer represents me.
I have fallen into a never ending hole.
So now matter how hard I fight.
It will not end until it finally ends me.