How Could You?

How could you do this, do this to me?
I was only 14 when you raped me.
I have flashbacks from all the pain that you caused.
It plays in my mind. Stop, rewind, and then pause.
I remember your touch was so cold,
How you pushed me down and ripped off all of my clothes.
You did it harder and harder; you would not stop.
I was lying in bed crying no; I said, "No, please stop."
That night I thought my voice was not heard.
I was a victim, I was scared, I couldn't say a word.
Your touch, your feel, the pain is real.
I feel like a sad little girl
In a big cold and lonely world.
I'm 18 now, and the pain is still with in me.
You're a rapist and my worst enemy.
How could you do something so evil?
You're a monster, a rapist, you're evil.
You will never understand all the damage you did,
The feelings, the pain, and the hurt that I feel.
You raped me, and my pain is real.
I wonder if I will overcome it and heal.
I was raped and I will learn how to deal.
I was raped because I did not consent to that deal.
You forced me and went against my will,
But I'll learn how to deal.
I can say I was raped and my body healed.
Even though I'm sad, I've learned to overcome it and deal.