Depression Poem

I am a twenty year old college student struggling all the time and words cannot express the depression I feel daily. not because of chemical imbalances, but because of the many past events that haunt may every waking moment and my every dream.

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I tried killing myself at your age. A month later I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. It's been two years, and I had gotten better, but then I fell again. I really hope you get...

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Eternally Alone

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Published by Family Friend Poems September 2008 with permission of the Author.

Where can I go?
How can I begin?
At 20, I'm still depressed,
I tried taking my life at ten.
I began hurting so long ago,
I thought I'd be numb by now,
But it gets worse. It feels
Like salted wounds on the inside.

I cry out to no one!
My family isn't there for me,
And neither are any friends.
I cry out, "Oh God!" yet the silence never ends.
Why? What have I done?
"Oh Lord, I take it back starting from day one."

Why can't I be loved? Why can't I be touched?
Am I jinxed? Am I vexed? Am I cursed?
I long to die, but they say it's wrong,
I'll go to hell!! So I bleed.
I bleed hate, I bleed confusion,
I bleed eternal despair.

I have been abandoned and used.
I have been hated and abused.
No father, no friends, no one to depend.
I hated my childhood because I was always alone.
I was shown little affection, even now that I'm grown.

I want things to change, I don't know how,
I'll die if something doesn't happen now.
Where is my hero?
I need saving from this isolation.
Will it happen, or will I be eternally alone?

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  • Henry Mazzaferri by Henry Mazzaferri
  • 5 years ago

Hi. I'm 10 (don't judge), and I have depression. I know how you feel. I have friends, and I literally feel like I’m wearing a mask to cover up my emotions. I’m a Christian and I tried to kill myself last year, but something in my head said don’t do it. I feel broken, judged, unloved, and hurt. Hopefully you can endure your depression like I’m trying.

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  • Sam by Sam
  • 5 years ago

I tried killing myself at your age. A month later I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. It's been two years, and I had gotten better, but then I fell again. I really hope you get better. Just please, never hurt yourself. Whatever you do, do not hurt yourself. Do anything else, anything, just not that. Please. Have a nice day.

  • Mallory by Mallory, Minnesota
  • 10 years ago

People like you are the reason I try to stay strong. Knowing I'm not the only one struggling for so so so long...it gives me hope that maybe one day I can overcome my depression. I have fallen into a third depression recently and I've just felt so hopeless...so hurt and lonely and wanting to just be better. But it seems I'm not sure how to accomplish that. Please, for your own sake. Stay strong. Because there IS a reason you have stayed strong this long. If you weren't meant to be alive, you would have done it long long ago as many others have. God help you and I to stay strong. Remember that you are not alone in this. Because so many of us are struggling. Every day. Today I broke down and I was so hopeless. But than I read this and it made me think...maybe I can make it. Just maybe. So thank you for saving me. Thank you for giving me some hope.

Sincerely,
Mallory
Age 18
Minnesota

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  • Ash by Ash, Idaho
  • 11 years ago

I'm 11, I have depression and my bestfriend's mom was the one who brought it on, now I don't want to get out of bed, I wish to be a happy person, my bestfriend's mom said that I was a problem and needed to stay away from my best friend. She said her grades were falling just because of me and I felt like the world was ending, now I just long to go back and fix what I did wrong. I don't understand though what I did. My friend said " hey Ash, where'd your spunky self go", I don't have a answer so I don't answer. Today was the first time I laughed for real in a few weeks.

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  • Jay by Jay
  • 12 years ago

I know how you feel. trust me. I'm 17 and have had depression my whole life. Even as a baby apparently, but I know what you're going through. The struggle to sleep and to get out of bed everyday knowing that there's basically no reason to go on but still trying. I tried ending my life at 14. I failed and that opened my eyes to one person that truely cares about me. So I struggle for that person everyday, but they are worth it even if it doesn't seem like it, they are!

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  • Tierra Johnson by Tierra Johnson, New York
  • 12 years ago

I know how you feel and I'm crying because everyday I feel like ending my life because the pain is unbearable but I've learned to open up and talk to my school counselor and thanks to her I'm still alive because now I know someone cares and I'm not alone .... and neither are you

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  • Hannah by Hannah
  • 13 years ago

PLEASE PEOPLE READ THIS MESSAGE:: Please people, I know and realize times are tough, but please don't EVER under ANY circumstances take your life, whether you believe it or not there are people who love you. Please find strength and do the smart thing, DON'T TAKE YOUR LIFE! PLEASEEE!! if you can tell others how you feel, therapy, counseling, anything, just please oh please don't take your life. I know how hard things can be, trust me, but believe it or not, you're loved and you are much smarter and stronger then you believe....<3

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  • Jordan by Jordan, VA
  • 14 years ago

Joshua Lawson I want you to know if I ever meet you. I'll be your friend, and I'd always listen, I'd love you with all my heart and make sure you were never alone, no seriously (I'd come over everyday and make sure your smiling) but keep looking for new people to meet because there are people like me in this world who are willing to be your friend and be truly happy when they know your happy. So please keep trying a little longer.

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  • Alma Schaffer by Alma Schaffer
  • 14 years ago

at age 8 I started to try and take my life
I drank a sip a perfume I almost thought I was dead when I found out I just passed out, this is the truth, and I know it sounds funny to you but if you knew what I go through I would not be funny to you.

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  • Jodie by Jodie, Canada
  • 14 years ago

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  • Unwanted by Unwanted
  • 14 years ago

I know how you feel I'm 13 and all I want to do is die but I'm learning to live with the pain. Sometimes it's better to go on keep trying ,someone is out there for you even if you have no one now. Try turning to God, that's what I did and it makes it easier to go on.

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