I feel like I'm falling, dying inside.
Wish I could tell you, wish in you I could confide.
Tell you exactly how bad I feel,
How reality fails to be real,
The tears I cry don't get past my eyes.
If reality shows, I cover it with lies.
I can't bear to think what would happen if you knew.
I can't bear to know what you would do.
The screams I build inside of me
Are covered up, begging to be free.
The pain is tearing me apart.
I may have stopped, but again I must start,
For without it I feel lost.
When I'm not happy what's the cost
Of a little bit of me that is spilled
So the emptiness inside of me can be filled?
I know I said I wouldn't again,
But try to understand if you can.
I need to do this to be whole.
I need to do this to piece together my soul.
I need to do this to be able to feel
So I can know exactly what is real.
Description Of Despair
Empty Inside
Published by Family Friend Poems January 2017 with permission of the Author.
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