Veronika J.

You never know the extent of a word
Until you use it
You never know the impact of a word
Until you abuse it

You never know what could or couldn't have been
Until you lose it
You'll never live through the good times in between
Because you lost it

Please, when you say goodbye
Make it count for what it's worth
Put some value on the word
It may be the last one ever heard

What I wouldn't give to see his face
Just one last time
He's lying in a better place
So I'll just smile and say it's fine

We never got to share a dance
Or celebrate together
If only we had one last chance
I'd make it last forever

I would show him how good I've done
And how much better I still can do
I'd show him how much he meant to me
And how much I loved him too

I'd thank him for always being there
And sending me all his love
I want to feel him one more time
Give him one last hug

He was the strongest male figure
I ever came across
He wore a smile even though
He knew how much he lost

The word goodbye left my lips
So quickly and so hollow
If only I knew it was forever
I'd tell him only until tomorrow

I'd make sure he kept fighting
Even though he was tired and weak
I'd be there to stop him crying
Whilst sleeping, I'd kiss him on the cheek.

And if it was his last 10 breaths
That he would only ever get
I'd take his hand and tell him
That him I would never forget

Followed by that little word
That makes him know it's time
That little word that makes me cry
I'd tell him, Goodbye Grandfather

It happened six months ago
Though it seems like yesterday
I remember it clearly
It was a cold autumn day
You told me you loved me
Then left through the door
Three bags and a suitcase was all you carried
As you got in your car and drove more and more
Wet tears ran down my cheek
As I heard your last car beep
I knew the fun times and the games were over
No more kisses at night, no more bear hugs when I'm sober
No more laughing in front of a warm blazing fire
No, none of that because you're a cold-hearted liar
For 13 years you only cheated and swore
You weren't the daddy figure I would adore
You tried your best to be a good dad
But somehow at the end of the day I would end up being sad
When I was younger it was easier
I was put into your arms and you held me tight
You would never let go if I were scared at night
But all those moments are just pale memories
Because of you I was left on the bottom of a hole
I had to find my own way out.
It wasn't easy, but I survived
Because my mum and my sister were by my side
I have just one more thing to say
As you live with your new wife, just remember
You gave a 13-year-old girl life
And it doesn't matter what you feel or did
She is still your little kid.