Shak Tabib

I don't know how to do it,
But I got to do right.
I need to say I'm sorry,
I don't want to see us fight.
I'm staring at the clouds,
I sit and reminisce.
I remember all the good times we had,
I remember our first kiss.
I don't want to have to end it,
I don't want to see it go free.
I want to be able to feel your lips,
Not just in my dreams.
Although I constantly dream of you,
It just doesn't seem enough.
I want to see your face,
I want to feel your touch.
I want you in my bed,
Hugging and kissing me.
I want you in my bed,
Making love to me.
I miss all the times we've shared,
And I can't stand to let it go
Over something that I did.
I really went down low.
I shared a kiss with someone else
When I should only be kissing you,
And right after I did that
I felt I wasn't true,
Even though he kissed me,
And I didn't kiss him back.
My mistake was
Not moving and stepping back.
It meant absolutely nothing
When his lips were touching mine,
I could only see your face
Running through my mind.
But out of everything I did the most,
The real reason why I cried,
Instead of being honest
I sat there and I lied.
Damn, I want to turn back time
And just tell you what went down.
I wouldn't be writing this,
I wouldn't have this frown.
You'd be able to trust me,
You wouldn't want to leave.
I would be able to hold a smile,
I'd be able to breathe.
Because I did that one thing,
My life is just a mess.
Because I lied to you,
I'm suffering from stress,
I'm suffering from a broken heart
Because I broke yours,
But then karma came and turned on me,
And you messed with other girls.
Damn, that really hurt me,
But I really do get why,
Why you did that to me,
Why you made me cry,
I know those other girls meant nothing,
They were just revenge.
Well, it really worked,
I'm not going to pretend,
Pretend that I'm not jealous,
Because I really am.
I don't even know the girl,
And she got me saying damn.
I wish I wouldn't have lied to you,
I want to make it work.
I want to be your only one,
I don't want to have to search.
Search for a different man,
'Cause I only want you
But when I close my eyes,
And I open and you're not there,
A tear runs down my face.
I can't act like I don't care,
And I hope you come back
And forgive me for what I've done.
Give me another chance,
Give me this last one.

I haven't written a poem
Since the last time I was hurt.
I haven't written a poem
Since my heart was ready to burst.
But now you've got me writing,
Not because I'm sad.
Now you got me writing
About things I never had.
I never had someone call me
And tell me they care for me.
I never had anyone
Just stop and stare at me,
And tell me that I'm pretty,
Even when I looked bad,
And tell me that I'm sexy,
And tell me to never be sad.
I've written you these poems
So you would know how I feel.
I want you to know I want you,
And I want you to know I'm real.