Poems by Marcia A. Newton

Picture this: 
being my someone special to love
being the one I want to take care of
being a part of my very soul
to be the one I'd never let go.

Picture this:
being a companion day or night
being a partner in my life
being a friend that I can trust
to be a lover that I can lust.

Picture this:
being the reason I want to breathe
being the one I want and need.
being the reason my heart beats
to be my everything when our lips meet.

Picture this:
being the love I was destined to find
being the music that soothes my mind
being my shelter when I need calm
to be my home when in your arms.

Picture this:
being the one who holds my heart
being together when each day starts
being the one in my life's next chapter
or to be my happily ever after.

Our happy days came and went, but memories always remained
because feelings stay buried deep inside even when times have changed.
There was a time when togetherness and love was all that really mattered
but hopes and dreams of starting over are all but lost or shattered.

I regret I didn't hold you longer.  I regret there wasn't more kisses.
I regret there wasn't more time together.  I regret the hurt this is.
I regret the day we said goodbye, but not what we once had.
One mistake can change everything, every dream and every plan.

I've shed many a tear thinking about what we could have been,
but we can't turn back the hands of time and do things we never did.
The heart knows the truth we waited too long to ever share love again,
or to try to start all over again just to end up in heartbreak and pain.

When I look back I always regret the chances we didn't take,
but we can't undo what has been done or change our past mistakes.
There are many things that I regret, but never our time together,
nor the way you use to hold me tight or the love we made to each other.

If I could write our story again, I would pour out my feelings inside
and remind you how we fell in love and how our love could last a lifetime.
If we could create new memories just tell me where and when,
I'd do it in a heartbeat even if it meant losing you once again.

We both live in the shadows of the past
where we only know hurt and love doesn't last.
We were made to feel that we weren't enough
We were brought to our knees and made to give up.

We both know how easy life falls apart
how easily our wounds broke our hearts.
We remember when we were made to feel small
when criticized for our insecurities and all of our flaws.

Painful pasts poisoned our loving hearts,
but how can we move forward to make a new start?
How can we make peace with all of the pain?
Will pain always haunt us and love be in vain?

Can we ever live in the here and now
and leave yesterday's mistakes in the past somehow?
Can we ever know love means us no harm?
Will we ever feel safe in each other's arms?

Why do our memories hurt us from long ago?
Are we reliving the past by not letting go?
Are we doomed to a life of pain and brokenness?
Can we make peace with the past and the emptiness?

Maybe we can make each other better
by being kind to one another whenever together,
by listening, by supporting and making the other feel whole,
by taking care of each other's heart and soul.

Maybe we can be each other's peace,
be tomorrow's hope where the past is released.
Maybe we can take a deep breath and make it last
when we realize we're free from the shadows of the past.

Broken in spirit.  Broken in heart.
Broken in pieces just falling apart.
Emotional pain.  Deep in despair.
No one to love and no one who cares.

Overwhelmed in sadness.  Life out of control.
Feeling empty and lost down to my soul.
Tired of the struggle.  I'm not that tough.
Always feeling like I'm not good enough.

Imprisoned by fear, I'm ready to fall.
Feeling forgotten and feeling small.
Caught in the middle in a storm of pain,
I search for the sun, but am lost in the rain.

I need to change something, but I don't know how,
because it's hard to focus on the here and now.
I need to take care and try to be brave
and not dwell on the past mistakes that I've made.

Being broken and wounded shatters my heart,
but its part of my story that I need to restart.
God, help me to find strength to keep on going,
and I'll take a deep breath and keep on coping.

Be careful what you wish for is what I hear them say
it could be your downfall or lift you up one day.
Be careful what you wish for it just might come true
It may bring you happiness or bring you sorrow too.

Wishing upon a star at night to make your dream come alive
may turn into your worst nightmare that you might not survive.
You need to be careful for any wish you make
it may be just what you want or be a big mistake.

Know that any wish you make has the power to change your life.
but once the wish is spoken it might cut you like a knife.
You may wish for a carefree life with more love and happiness,
just know that any wish you make may have some consequence.

Some wishes that you make may not be what you seek,
and any wish can make you strong or it can make you weak.
There is a chance that any wish can make a dream come true,
but has the power to twist your life in ways from what you knew.

Be careful what you wish for, it can change your fate.
It could be everything you want; it's a risk you'll have to take.
Any wish you make can bring you hell or bring you heaven,
it can bring you nothing or bring anything you imagine.

Be careful what you wish for or so the fable goes.
It may lead to something special or lead to paths unknown.
Be careful what you wish for; a lesson to guide you through.
Some wishes that you want may not be what's best for you.

If your heart is true and your wish is good and kind,
you may find that any doubts are yours to leave behind.
Embrace the life you have, for it's yours to make or break.
What you do with your life is your own fate to shape.

If only I could turn back time and relive my days with you,
I'd hold on tight with all my might when I found my way to you.
If only you knew how I felt lost when I knew what I left behind,
you'd understand why I felt the need to turn back the hands of time.

If only you knew that letting you go was my single greatest regret.
And if only you knew that I was hurting too and it's a feeling I can't forget.
If only you knew I thought of you as the only one to hold and kiss,
and you need to know before I go, you're someone I truly miss.

If only you knew that when I met you, you brought color to my day.
And you need to know before I go, before you, I only saw gray.
If only you knew when I needed you, you were always there to listen.
And if only you knew that when you left, a part of me went missing.

If only you knew, time spent with you was the best part of my day.
And if only you knew because of you, I am the person I am today.
If only you knew when I was with you, I had no worries or cares.
And you need to know after I let you go, I kept you in my prayers.

You need to know before I go you didn't do anything wrong,
and you need to know before I go your love only made me strong.
If only you knew that when I was with you, I never felt sad or alone,
and if only you knew that my love for you was the best I've ever known.

If only you knew when I was with you, you never let me down.
and if only you knew how my love grew every day you came around.
I need you to know before I go that my love wasn't make believe,
nor was it a dream, or infatuation, or even a fantasy.

You need to know before I go, you were the best time of my life.
And you need to know instead of letting you go, I wanted to be your wife.
If only you knew when I was with you, we came so close to forever.
And if only you knew time spent with you is something I'll always treasure.

If only you knew that I wanted to move up time to see the future
and see if we had found each other and if our love was truer.
You need to know that I loved you so, and you gave me so much pleasure,
and you need to know I don't want to let go but stay in this moment forever.
If only....

What is it about Christmas that feels like magic?
Is it love and celebration or memories making it nostalgic?
Is it believing in something we cannot see
such as Santa, Rudolph, Elves, and Frosty?

Somehow the magic of Christmas connects us all,
binding us as family and friends too many to recall.
The giving and sharing of all of our traditions
just to brighten each other's lives being our motivation.

The magic of Christmas can be telling stories and singing songs,
and becoming better people when we right all the wrongs.
To share the good feelings that gives thrill to our hearts
such as acts of kindness and sending holiday cards.

The magic of Christmas can be found in a smile
and the laughing out loud of a small happy child.
The magic of Christmas can be found in the silence
where it lives inside the hearts of many in existence.

The magic of Christmas can be soft and beautiful
by bringing joy to others from a heart that glows.
The magic can be found in forgiveness and togetherness
and found in life's blessings that brings us happiness.

The magic of Christmas can be forever heartwarming,
and goodness and love can be always everlasting.
We can keep the joy of Christmas living within us
knowing Jesus the Lord is the real magic of Christmas.

Heavenly Angels, Messengers of God, you speak to me with numbers of love:
111:  Stay positive and know the desires of heart and soul.
222:  Keep your faith alive and always trust in the Lord.
333:  You are surrounded and loved by God above.
444:  Your angels reach out to you with love.
555:  Changes are coming into your life.
666:  Be a service to others and shine your light.
777:  Your dreams and hopes are coming true.
888:  Follow your heart and believe in you.
999:  Release your burdens and start anew.
         as new beginnings are waiting for you.
My happy heart does know and believe that Angels of God are speaking to me.
Guardian Angel Prayer:  Angel of God, my guardian dear, to whom God's love commits me here.  Ever this day be at my side, to light and guard, to rule and guide.  Amen.

During this festive season of giving
there are many Christmas wishes you are deserving.
Because your gift of friendship is the best I've received,
your gift is these Christmas miracles to believe.

You are so much sweeter than a candy cane.
You are peace on Earth in so many ways.
You are twinkling lights and the jingle in bells.
You are the merry and bright that make hearts swell.

You are the sleigh bells beautifully ringing.
You are Christmas memories that life is creating.
You are the song carolers are singing.
You are joy to the world who just keeps giving.

You are the heavenly angel on top of the tree.
You are the winter wonderland that's magical to see.
You are the stocking hung with care full of treats.
You are the present underneath the Christmas tree.

You are the star brightly shining Christmas night.
You are the Santa making the holidays bright.
You are the music that lifts holiday spirits.
You are a Christmas miracle and never forget it.

You are holiday hugs and mistletoe kisses.
You are the comfort and joy in my Christmas.
You are the Christmas magic I have come to believe.
You are Christmas love and loved you'll aways be.

I can't be certain, but I believe we have met before.
There's an eerie connection between us; of this I'm very sure.
You seem so familiar like our paths have crossed somehow.
I wonder maybe in a dream or a memory long past now.

I don't recall when or how, but know this has happened before
in another life, another place through a time dimension door.
Could this be a glimpse of a world split into two?
Maybe I am just experiencing a case of déjà vu.

I feel an uncertainty having somehow lived this moment;
remembering echoes of the past though I've never known it.
I'm not sure if this is real or if it's just a feeling.
I seem to sense this moment is from another reality.

I'm uncertain if this is chance or if it's destiny,
or an out of body experience, or the past catching up with me.
I have no clear recollection, but I feel an odd sensation
like a karmic energy is summoning me like an invitation.

Time stands still, yet the clock keeps ticking as the timeline shifts,
a fleeting sense of déjà vu and unaware of how to own it.
In this suspended space like a ghost trapped in a room,
I reach out but I can't touch what I can only presume.

Is what I'm experiencing a gut feeling or intuition;
a fragment of a memory or is it my imagination?
Did our souls once make a pact destined to start anew
or are these just echoes of dreams, memories or déjà vu?