Poems by Marcia A. Newton

During this festive season of giving
there are many Christmas wishes you are deserving.
Because your gift of friendship is the best I've received,
your gift is these Christmas miracles to believe.

You are so much sweeter than a candy cane.
You are peace on Earth in so many ways.
You are twinkling lights and the jingle in bells.
You are the merry and bright that make hearts swell.

You are the sleigh bells beautifully ringing.
You are Christmas memories that life is creating.
You are the song carolers are singing.
You are joy to the world who just keeps giving.

You are the heavenly angel on top of the tree.
You are the winter wonderland that's magical to see.
You are the stocking hung with care full of treats.
You are the present underneath the Christmas tree.

You are the star brightly shining Christmas night.
You are the Santa making the holidays bright.
You are the music that lifts holiday spirits.
You are a Christmas miracle and never forget it.

You are holiday hugs and mistletoe kisses.
You are the comfort and joy in my Christmas.
You are the Christmas magic I have come to believe.
You are Christmas love and loved you'll aways be.

What is it about Christmas that feels like magic?
Is it love and celebration or memories making it nostalgic?
Is it believing in something we cannot see
such as Santa, Rudolph, Elves, and Frosty?

Somehow the magic of Christmas connects us all,
binding us as family and friends too many to recall.
The giving and sharing of all of our traditions
just to brighten each other's lives being our motivation.

The magic of Christmas can be telling stories and singing songs,
and becoming better people when we right all the wrongs.
To share the good feelings that gives thrill to our hearts
such as acts of kindness and sending holiday cards.

The magic of Christmas can be found in a smile
and the laughing out loud of a small happy child.
The magic of Christmas can be found in the silence
where it lives inside the hearts of many in existence.

The magic of Christmas can be soft and beautiful
by bringing joy to others from a heart that glows.
The magic can be found in forgiveness and togetherness
and found in life's blessings that brings us happiness.

The magic of Christmas can be forever heartwarming,
and goodness and love can be always everlasting.
We can keep the joy of Christmas living within us
knowing Jesus the Lord is the real magic of Christmas.

Heavenly Angels, Messengers of God, you speak to me with numbers of love:
111:  Stay positive and know the desires of heart and soul.
222:  Keep your faith alive and always trust in the Lord.
333:  You are surrounded and loved by God above.
444:  Your angels reach out to you with love.
555:  Changes are coming into your life.
666:  Be a service to others and shine your light.
777:  Your dreams and hopes are coming true.
888:  Follow your heart and believe in you.
999:  Release your burdens and start anew.
         as new beginnings are waiting for you.
My happy heart does know and believe that Angels of God are speaking to me.
Guardian Angel Prayer:  Angel of God, my guardian dear, to whom God's love commits me here.  Ever this day be at my side, to light and guard, to rule and guide.  Amen.

To the love of my life, I want you to know
I carry you in my heart wherever I go.
My heart has always been and will always be with you
because I waited all of my life to love someone like you.

To the love of my life, I loved you from the start
and I will love you forever with every beat of my heart.
From the moment you came into my life, I've loved you everyday.
You are every dream I've ever had yesterday and today.

To the love of my life, you are the one I want and need.
and you are the best love that has ever happened to me.
I found my Heaven here on Earth when you hold me in your arms.
Every part of my being desires you. You're my wish upon a star.

To the love of my life, you bring out the best in me.
God brought you into my life is something I'll always believe.
I love to gaze into your eyes and see myself in you,
and I love to kiss and hold you close whenever I'm with you.

To the love of my life, you are so loved.
You are my greatest treasure and you're my only one.
I will never get tired of loving you and my love will never fade.
I choose to fall in love with you each and every day.

To the love of my life, you touch and hold my heart.
I start each day thinking of you and you're my very last thought.
You are my life and my love, and I don't want it any other way.
My life is beautiful because of you now and for always.

There's a place called home where everything feels right,
a place that's enchanting and beautiful and its own paradise,
a place of wonder and excitement and its own playland.
This place called home is known as wonderland.

Laughter and love overflow in wonderland,
where hopes and dreams are fulfilled as planned.
Delights and marvels are awaiting in utopia
where blissfulness and surprises are part of euphoria.

Wonderland is a dreamworld of make believe,
a place of beauty and fantasies.
It is a world of myths and magical things
beyond the Earth where Heaven begins.

Wonderland is happiness and infinite inspiration,
a space to live a love story or a wild obsession.
My wonderland exists wherever you are.
My heart is with you no matter how far.

In wonderland we are never apart,
and thoughts and desires keep us young at heart.
My soul craves a time when it's not a fable
to live a charmed life as long as we're able.

Is it just a fool's dream to feel this way
to cross into a world different as night and day?
All I need is a vivid imagination
to take me to wonderland on any occasion.

Picture this: 
being my someone special to love
being the one I want to take care of
being a part of my very soul
to be the one I'd never let go.

Picture this:
being a companion day or night
being a partner in my life
being a friend that I can trust
to be a lover that I can lust.

Picture this:
being the reason I want to breathe
being the one I want and need.
being the reason my heart beats
to be my everything when our lips meet.

Picture this:
being the love I was destined to find
being the music that soothes my mind
being my shelter when I need calm
to be my home when in your arms.

Picture this:
being the one who holds my heart
being together when each day starts
being the one in my life's next chapter
or to be my happily ever after.

Why do I fade to gray when everyone else is bright?
Why am I without color living between black and white?
Why am I held captive in a place that is unknown?
Why am I invisible and living in the gray zone?

There are no right answers, and there are no right choices.
There are too many brain knots with too many voices.
Not enough trust in the forces of life,
and no one to save me or be by my side.

It's being afraid to stay and afraid to move.
It's a struggle between two sides in a waiting room.
It's hard to let go and let life just happen
or break away from what was or what I imagine.

But, I must find balance and self-acceptance
by moving past mistakes while living in the present.
To break free from the gray zone and completely let go,
I must clean the slate and reset life's flow.

In my life's reset, I can be free
to be the person I am with a life meant to be.
I'll be ready to adapt the narrative of my life
and leave the gray zone behind to be colorful and bright.

We never saw it coming when our friendship first began, 
but it became a sweet romance that set off destiny's plan.
Having a love to treasure and a love to defend
is the fire and passion in a flame and a friend.

Our friendship started the fire which burns us with desire
and continues to inflame us like a raging wildfire.
With souls on fire and hearts untamed
it's all or nothing when our passions are unchained.

Only a flame and a friend know the language of the heart,
they whisper in silence when words fall apart.
Love lives in the heart where worries have no place.
and friendship's tranquility cannot be erased.

As moments are stolen in the arms of a friend,
our souls are finally freed as love transcends.
Time together becomes a heaven we embrace
as we lie together face to face.

A touch, a kiss, the look in our eyes
reflect feelings inside we can't disguise.
We are taking a chance wherever it leads
because love is worth everything and all that we need.

Broken in spirit.  Broken in heart.
Broken in pieces just falling apart.
Emotional pain.  Deep in despair.
No one to love and no one who cares.

Overwhelmed in sadness.  Life out of control.
Feeling empty and lost down to my soul.
Tired of the struggle.  I'm not that tough.
Always feeling like I'm not good enough.

Imprisoned by fear, I'm ready to fall.
Feeling forgotten and feeling small.
Caught in the middle in a storm of pain,
I search for the sun, but am lost in the rain.

I need to change something, but I don't know how,
because it's hard to focus on the here and now.
I need to take care and try to be brave
and not dwell on the past mistakes that I've made.

Being broken and wounded shatters my heart,
but its part of my story that I need to restart.
God, help me to find strength to keep on going,
and I'll take a deep breath and keep on coping.

I cherish the moments we once shared,
those were the times when Heaven was near.
But now I linger in the in-between
torn between the past and a future unforeseen.

I am without you in this state of transition,
reflecting on my life in this intermission.
Without you in the in-between, my world is cold and strange,
a broken heart that needs to heal because everything has changed.

My past is but a shadow and my future out of sight.
I am lost in a strange space where nothing feels quite right.
It's a waiting game I play yearning for something better,
learning to say goodbye and hoping to find closure.

While I search for answers to questions I don't know,
I wonder if the in-between will ever let me go.
Living in the in-between is the hardest place to be,
but it's where I need to find my strength to set my heartache free.

While living in the in-between, I hope to find new purpose
through a journey from fragility to a place of strong resilience.
I hope to find my joy and find my inner peace,
in this pause between the pain and where all struggles cease.

And when the dust settles and this weight lifts from my soul,
I will face life without you with a new dream and goal.
I will carry the lessons learned of heartache and of struggle
as I leave the in-between behind and surface from the rubble.