Desiree Kimbrue

Do you know how it feels to lose someone?
How you go through grief and pain?
I know how that feels,
and how it feels to always live in rain.
I remember it like it was yesterday,
how I stood by my dad's side.
And how I couldn't bear to look at him,
but all I did was cry.
I knew I couldn't help him,
I couldn't fix his pain.
I couldn't stop myself from crying,
I couldn't help him in any way.
I wanted to help my dad,
but they said it was too late.
How could it have come to this,
to this horrible fate?
My dad was loving,
he was a caring guy.
Maybe he wasn't perfect,
but he didn't cheat, steal, or lie.
I loved my dad.
I loved him with all my heart.
But there was nothing I could do.
It was too late from the start.
They said they caught it too late.
There was nothing they could do
but just let him pass on.
It was hard, but it was true.
It's been almost a year.
It doesn't feel like it's been that long.
And it still hurts,
but he's now where he belongs.
No matter what happens,
he'll always be loved,
until the day I die
and I join him up above.
He's up there somewhere with God.
He's in his rightful place.
And even though I want him back,
it's a tragedy I have to face.
Sometimes at night
I cry myself to sleep.
But through the year of darkness,
the depression I'll have to defeat.
His love
is what keeps me hanging on.
Love is a strong word,
Because it's kept me alive this long.
But there is one more thing
that I have to say.
My dad's love will go on and on,
and he's in my heart to stay.

I see people laughing and joking all around,
but on my face there is no smile; instead there is a frown.

I never laugh anymore; instead I cry,
and I never stop to ask myself, "Why?"

I heard we live and die by the choices we make,
and there's only so much a person can take.

So just remember life goes on,
and it hurts when someone leaves and is gone.

So always remember, keep your head up,
because another door is opened every time one is shut.