Three Months Without You

Today marks three months since you've gone,
And each day, the weight of your absence lingers on.

I tremble with sorrow, my body aches,
My heart squeezed tight, a pain that never breaks.
Gut coils in anguish, breathless with despair,
Living without you is more than I can bear.
Hope has faded, no desire to be,
For without you, Larry,
there's no reason for me.

I think of the husband, so kind and true,
My gentle lover who pulled me through.
You made me feel safe, cherished, and bright,
Now I wander in darkness,
stripped of all light.

These three months feel like an endless night,
Each day, I hope to wake and find you in sight.
But the nightmare goes on, a relentless tide,
Leaving me reaching for you with no one by my side.

I remember your words, written with care,
In a card where your love was laid bare:
"Without you, there's no reason to live,
to hope, to dreams, and to be."

Now I find myself feeling the same,
lost and alone,
Living without you,
my heart turned to stone.
How do I go on without your embrace,
Without your comforting words, your steady grace?

I try, love, to take each day as it comes,
But it's hard,
so hard,
my soul feels numb.
I'm unsure if I can make it through,
For I love you, and I miss you--more than words could ever convey.