Rachel Garrett

i walk to the store, the girl in front of me drops something.
i pick it up, but she doesn't say thank you.
i wonder if it's because i handed it too her rudely or if she was just like me.
i turn on my heel, stumbling trying to catch myself when i fall on the ground.
my mind freezes as two girls start to laugh.
i wonder if theyre laughing at me.
i pick myself up and start walking out because i can't bare to be in here anymore.
i count the grocery carts to calm my breathing.
the person beside me sneezes and i say bless you, but they don't say anything back.
i wonder if it's because i said it to quietly or said it too rudely.
i get onto the bus, counting the steps it takes me to get to my seat.
when i get off at my stop, i thank the bus driver but get no response.
he probably thinks i'm weird for thanking a bus driver.
i walk through the crowd counting my breathes until they're even.
i make eye contact with the girl in front of me and i smile, but she doesn't smile back.
i wonder if it's because i smiled too softly or because maybe she wasn't looking at me.
if she wasn't looking at me then i would look like a fool for trying to smile at someone who didn't see me.
i walk in the store and knock something off a shelf. i bend to pick it up and many people stare at me.
i wonder if i have something on me or if i'm just ridiculous for dropping something in the store.
i stand in a aisle and the person beside me looks at me, i wonder if it's because i'm breathing too heavy.
i'm walking to check out now when i see a baby and wave.
it makes no motion so i wonder if it's not old enough to understand or if i'm invisible.
(i hope i'm invisible)

You walked away
Left me alone
Nothing to say
No place to call home

Tears grew
In my eyes
If only you knew
Why I cry

Darling, I'd wait
For a million years
I'd hope for fate
Cry many tears

No matter the space
The world puts between us
No matter the pace
It'd take to discuss

You and I
Me and you
I can't deny
What you put me through

You broke my heart
Crumpled it up
Tore it apart
Threw it in a cup

You used me for show
Then put me aside
Now I know
No reason to lie

We fought
For eternity
Even I thought
This would last infinitely

It did not
That is true
But I fought
Just for you

Healing from heartbreak
is something one rarely does
from the moment of that day
even if it's just because

Healing is crying
when no one is around
Healing is dying
on the inside deep down

Healing is wishing
upon a star
that they would come running
from afar

Though no matter what
may go through your mind,
for them your love
will always be kind

You'll love them forever,
no matter what you say,
even if they never
give you the time of day

No one will judge you;
it's a pattern of life
that may be true,
but it'll hurt like a knife

Healing from heartbreak
never comes easy;
your body will ache,
you'll feel queasy

So heal your heart,
bandage it together;
don't pull yourself apart,
it'll always get better