Poems by Derek S. Weaver

I feel a heaviness on my heart.
It's a mixture of emotions and feelings.
The butterflies overtake my chest.
It only happens when I think of you
I get scared and nervous
Because it's too late for me.
I've fallen deep into the abyss of your love.
I keep sinking deeper and deeper.
It scares me because I'm reaching out for you.
I'm longing for your grip
To pull me up into your arms
Or maybe you'll dive into the abyss of my love.
Maybe we'll sink together.
We can breathe life into each other's souls to survive
Because that's what true love does.
I'm longing for the day
To hear those three beautiful words
That will pierce my heart forever.
To hear "I love you"
Will weld my soul into yours.
You'll be treated like the angel you are
Miraculously created by God Himself.
Reach out for me
Because I'm looking for you
Deep in the abyss of your love.

I saw her standing across the hall
Carrying her book tote, leaning against the wall
Her beautiful eyes glanced my way
Dancing green emeralds took my breath away

I was 11 years old and so was she
The very first girl to take my heart undeniably
She became my first love in 1985
We wrote each other notes to keep our crush alive

Songs were dedicated, shy grins traded
Coming home from school, I sat by the phone and waited
Just to hear her voice gave me butterflies
Nothing else seemed to matter otherwise

I saw her at the roller rink, my heart filled with glee
We couple skated with sweaty hands to "Say You, Say Me"
Looking in her eyes and smelling her perfume
I knew instantly, she could light up any room

Then one day after school, an unexpected turn
She walked up to me sadly, I felt my stomach churn
She handed me a note saying she's breaking up with me
Also the first to break my heart. How can this be?

After that day, I didn't see her much again
Only hearing of her every now and then
Decades went by, our lives seemed to be cursed
Living with liars and cheaters, ending up divorced

As life went on, I thought of her often
The more heartache I lived through, she'd never be forgotten
You see at 11 years old, she was the only one honest
All the others were liars of all the things promised

39 years later after she told me goodbye
I saw her on Facebook so I had to say hi
To my surprise, I found out she was single
I asked if we could meet, to see if we could mingle

A few days later we decided to meet
When she stepped out of her car my heart skipped a beat
Dancing green emerald eyes again took my breath away
I felt I went back in time to that glorious day

All of the feelings, every last one
Stitched back together, to never be undone
It took 39 years for you to come back full circle to me
To tell you that I love you, just like at Grace Hill Elementary

(Say You, Say Me)