Cristinalyn T. Tabangin

I can hear every word,
The sweetest among every mouth,
The sadness in every happy story,
But I am not blinded but what is real.

Sometimes I go with the flow,
I listen, but never take things the way they want,
Act not the way they expect me to,
Coz I am me and don't need to be like everybody.

People are judgmental no matter what you do,
So just do the right thing that will make the better you.
Don't get distracted with unreal things they say,
Coz God will eventually reveal the truth someday.

No one ever saw the pain in me,
Including my close friends and family.
Generally I was lost but showed a happy me,
Hold back every tear, no matter how hard it was for me to carry.
Those days silently killed the future I wanted to see.
Made me want more to stay in the dark because it's where I felt free.
Alone was the best way to conceal my agony,
Realized that I gave too much, that I lost every inch of me.
Every night was just filled with misery,
So I just prayed hard, hoping that things would end the way they needed to be.

I've been in the dark many times before,
Cried as much as the rain could ever pour,
Lived in silence despite this noisy world,
Smiled like nothing really hurts.

But it was during those times when I found Him,
Felt comforted and continued to dream,
Fixed my broken heart,
And used pen and paper to have the chance to scream.

I had so many reasons to give up,
But He always finds ways to put me back on top.
Made me realized that I'm worth it too,
Helped me accomplish the things I thought I could never do.

Protect us, Lord, and send your healing,
Receive our prayers that keep on pouring.
Allow your people to have their second chance.
Yes, Lord, we are begging you hand in hand.
Each of us may have our sins,
But remember us, Lord, and let this pandemic virus end.

How hard it is to heal a broken heart.
Everything seems so dark,
And it seems like the stars even lost their spark.
Loneliness just pulled me apart.
It even killed the dreams I have in my heart.
Now I see the light because I learned to write,
Giving the silent healing I need to free the sadness I was hiding inside.