The Ghost

I look around for myself,
But a ghost is all I see.
I only see this ghost of a person I used to be.
I don't know who you are, but I know why you are here.
You're the ghost that's taken my place, leaving me in fear.
Where did I go; am I gone for good?
I thought I was unbreakable, I guess I misunderstood.
I thought life was kind, loving, and true,
But life created this ghost of me; I don't know what to do.
Where am I, the person I used to be?
I have looked and looked, but this ghost is all I see.
I pray I return; I hope I will
But the ghost who's taken my place has me searching still.
What if I'm gone forever, never to return?
Losing myself was always my biggest concern
I'm still searching, calling out my name,
But the ghost answers; I'm still not the same.
The ghost is sad; what does this mean?
Things aren't always what they seem.
For a brief moment I think I am here ,
Only to realize I'm still this ghost, leaving only fear,
Fear that this ghost is here to stay.
I just want to be me: happy, not feeling this way.
Is this really how it's going to be?
God, I pray that I return to me.
I want to be myself; this isn't right.
Finding where I am is my biggest fight.
The ghost thinks she's smart; she thinks she's won.
I refuse to let her stay; I want her gone.
I won't give up; I will search day by day
Because this ghost of me can't stay.

Do you know how it feels when your heart bleeds?
To make it stop, love is all it needs.
My heart has been broken, my faith slipping away.
I know I'm strong, but will I be okay?
Until I am found, please remember my face,
Because all that's left of me
Is the ghost who's taken my place.