Shahinaz Soliman

The child within me,
A soul you cannot see,
Simplicity and innocence, as pure as it can be,
Purity, laughter, wings that set me free,

It's that child within me.
When I lower my shield,
My thoughts take me to an epic, green field,
I'll run and embrace the flowers,
I can linger there for endless hours.

My arms are wide open to help the world,
No one needs to ask or say a word,
I'll extend my hand to a poor little boy,
To make him happy, I'll give him my toy.

It's that child within me,
Who wants to laugh, play, and jump all day,
To cast away these world impurities without delay.

I didn't ask to grow,
I want my eyes to continue to glow,
My hair to flutter, move, and flow,
My true feelings to be clear and show,

It's the child within me,
That I want you to see,
Just clear, no fear,
That's who I am,
That child is me.

I'm a mess, I guess,

Wanted it all, but settled for less.
A soul adrift, in a pretty dress,

Or a jumbled brain, unable to address

I am a looney tooney in my own way
It's time to work but I chose to play
I can't decide what I will relay
My wisdom or craziness, who to obey?

I am a haha lala dada weeee
I can't make a sentence or even agree
I like it when my brain is locked
When those crazy sounds are totally blocked
When I only listen to a  none-sense thought
It can be boredom or something I caught

Okey dokey the day is over
Tomorrow I will wear this pants and pullover
Lovely or ugly way to go
Wake me up when this whistle blow.

Good night.

It is not a man or a woman
It is not even a human
It is what you chose for your life
It is why you left your son and your wife
It is the man made evil
It is what blinds most people

Money was your choice
Money was your loudest voice
Money was your brain wash
Money was your one approach
Money was your master
Money was your life disaster

One day you had a heart
money and greed tore it apart
One day you had a life
It is gone, no family and no wife
One day we made a promise, Greed stepped on it, so it vanished

Now you are standing behind bars
A memory of being happy with coins in the jars
Memories of the dark transformations
Memories when you lost your faith and sensations

Sorry that this was our fate
Sorry that you didn't have a strong gate
Sorry that this is the end
Sorry I can't pretend
Sorry you had a will and you had a choice
Sorry that's insane, you  didn't hear your Lord's voice.
Sorry I lost you, sorry for what you are going through..
Sorry that you did what you do
After all,
we will always love you.

Praying for you

I am a woman,
My strength comes from above,
My emotions, moods, and love,
I am the mother, daughter, and wife,
I am the woman who fought for her life.

I am a woman,
Cancer, I don't care,
I will fight this, and I will dare.
Those breasts fed my baby,
Without them, I will still be the same lady.

I am a woman,
A fighter until the end,
Complex emotions that blossom and blend,
A survivor who will hold your hand.
We will cross that bridge and firmly land.

I am a woman,
Don't listen, they are all wrong,
I'll stay courageous and strong.
No, I'm not leaving now,
Baby, mommy will stay here somehow.

I am your mother,
The woman who nurtured you,
This challenge is easy, it's true,
You don't know what I've been through,

So please don't worry, and don't even feel sorry,
I will fight this till the end, to that cancer, I will never bend.

By Shahinaz Soliman